This has to be one of the worst years of my life. I have no idea what I've done to piss off [Insert Deity/Ideal Here] but I did it. Its gotten to the point where today I just broke down and cried. I don't understand. I've tried to do nothing but good things. I've done nothing wrong, even tried to get Karma on my side. But its just this year...its been to horrible.

1) It was probably the fourth year living with my dad. It wasn't in my life for 17 out of the 22 years of my life. He offered me his house when my mother and I weren't seeing eye to eye. I could get access to school easily and I bonded with him and my stepmother. They had to live Virginia and move away because my mother tried to put him in jail for child support. By the time this happened my younger brother and I passed the age of 18. But she still tried. So much anxiety was placed on me to find a job quickly and find a place to live. This was my first breakdown of the year. Thankfully my friends let me stay with them...

1b) During my late sophomore/early Junior year, my advisor told me that I didn't need to have wasted my time with Biology major for being a vet tech. I could had went to a technical college or community college and got the degree in less time and money. I was distraught. This is something you tell your students when they first explain their ambitions. My ambitions crashed I just switched majors

1a) While going through the initial anxiety the nurses at Lynchburg College tried to make me take Anti-Depressants and Anti-Anxiety medication. Personally I refused to take it, but I pretended to so I could get the Accomadation. The Anxiety was messing with my homework, my social life, and I had insomnia

2) Until I had to move back in with my mother during the summer. My stepdad says my mother and I have the same personality of how we say how we feel and don't back down from an argument. She and I butt head a lot. We have numerous altercation that have even gotten physical.

3) I've been trying to get a job, but no one has hired me passed the interview. My mother and stepdad are not giving me the uplifting support I need. I have but few friends around locally who rarely meet up but once every three weeks. (I can see on some of their faces is more of chore than and actually get together). Then me and my mother got into. "Why don't you get a degree in your job" She said. "Because I'm not done. I need to get a regular entry level job." I replied "What was the point of you going to college. Wasting money and time" I was pissed and sadden at the same time. I started to doubt my reasoning for going to college.

4) Those within the area of Central Virginia know how the strange death circling around Levon Martin and the police in Lynchburg, Va. Well that was my cousin. The police said they ran after him and he collapsed on his own and they try to give him CPR. Some witness testify saying that he was tazed several times. Other also reported that he surrendered to the police. Levon was hospitalized where is was in a coma from cardiac arrest, He died the next day.


Too much shit happened this year. Like I'm superstitious. I don't fuck with Oujia boards, unlucky 13, etc. I don't what I did to make the powers that be piss in my wheaties. But I sure as all did something.

There were good times during the year. During FWA and AC I got to bond with people I never thought I could imagine. Dance the night away and going hard that it tears up the floor, and be with old and new friends. I have to be honest. If it wasn't for my friends. I'll be a depressed husk of a man. My friends and their bond complete me and make me happy. I would trade my possessions to have an infinite amount of resource just to visit and hang with them. These friendships I made, I wouldn't change for the world