I think I just need to vent right now.

I know my problems may seem minor but they still are problems and I think they should be acknowledged.

I'm not upset. I'm not sad. I don't really feel negative or positive feelings. I feel emotionless. Currently in my life, summer is ending and I feel like it's been all wasted. I've literally done only a few things out of these about 8 weeks. I went to Portcon and Warped Tour which in total is 5 full days of events. Of course I've done other minor things like going to the mall a couple times and going to Funtown Splashtown once, but I feel like it's been all a waste. I've just been sitting in my room on my computer and playing video games by myself a majority of the time. Or better yet I've been working, which isn't really fun because I have no friends there.

I lost a good friend during the middle of summer due to something I shouldn't say. My 2 best friends from another town nearby have been too busy hanging out without me and doing weed, which I found about through tumblr (Note that I am a person who is against weed even though I know it's not dangerous). Anyway, they barely even acknowledge me. I hung out with them only once this summer. Once! As for my few local friends, we don't do much at all because we can't think of things to do.

Recently, the new map pack for Black Ops 2 came out and I agreed to play the zombies game, Origins, with some british guys and that was all fun and I loved it. But after that one day, nothing has happened similar to that day. I've been waiting to play with them but they're not interested or they're busy.

Here's the thing. With all of my friends, I think to myself like there is nothing ever to do, therefore, it's pointless to hang out.

I feel like I'm becoming less and less interesting. I never want to try new things or play different games. I rarely talk to people and better yet I NEVER talk to my friends, which I've always done but I know it's not healthy to do so, I guess.

I know I'm not interesting but with the little interests I have, not to sound selfish, I just wish i had friends who would have the same interests as me. Of course I love my few friends even though we don't do much but I wish I could make more.

I know it requires effort to do but I'm just in a cycle of not being social and therefore I can't get what I would like, which is more friends.

I don't know. Like I said, I don't really feel anything because I know my situation already. I'm just kind of waiting for something unexpected to happen and maybe change me. I don't what it could be. But i'm waiting and I've been waiting all summer.

I should be enjoying my life while I'm young, yet I'm unmotivated to do anything.

Thanks if you read this I guess? Bye.