For those that remember my DUB issue a few years ago, well it's back. This means my body is bleeding out a second time so I'm done for.
I'll likely be completely sterile this time, since it has been going on for about 3 weeks now. Tonight it started with the giant clots again. I cannot
go to the hospital because my dad has been giving me Percocet aka Oxycodone for pain since I have been in excruciating pain these last few weeks.

If that shows up in my blood tests they can legally call the cops on me for having it. YES! THEY CAN DO NOT ARGUE IT WE HAVE SEEN IT HAPPEN!
It's part of a new law that is trying to track down dealers, pill mills, and people under the influence. The only thing I can do is
eat lots of heavy Iron foods and take Iron pills to replace the blood I lose so I don't become anemic.

Last time this happened I had no idea and I was borderline needing a blood transfusion. I won't let that happen this time,
and do not worry
if I feel it's getting to bad I'll go to the hospital and take a chance. For now though I am an emotional wreck and I can't think.
I'm in alot of pain but now I can't take any more pain meds.

**Also just to clarify I do not take them to get high on purpose! I have been in ALOT of pain between the DUB and my feet.
I have growths in my feet which is genetic and they FUCKING HURT even if they are cut out they can grow back like a cyst.**


So now I have no way to control the pain, I CANNOT take blood thinners so that rules out like 90% of the meds I could
take to ease the pain. A blood thinner is an anti inflammatory like ibuprofen and aspirin. So now I have to go to work like this,
which really fucking sucks since I don't get many bathroom breaks let alone long ones. So I don't know what to do....

I'll keep you all updated as something arises but for now just know that I'll still try to work on commissions in a timely
manner, however some days I may just lie in bed. So that is it, I hope this isn't the end for me and my reproductive
parts but if so then so be it I guess. Wouldn't surprise me if this makes me 100% sterile anyway, since I am not aloud to be truly happy....