Super Depressed...Also I need HONEST Input
11 years ago
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http://mali-kyte.tumblr.com/
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My birthday is coming up in 10 days on the 17th. I have no money and I have the weekend off to be with David. As of now I won't be able to do anything with him which is kinda depressing.
Production has been slow because I have been off and on sick as fuck. Also been rather SEVERELY depressed since I guess I might be losing my job. Since I made nothing on my membership quota I got cut again so all April I won't be working Mondays. So now I only work 2 days a week but I also still owe commissions so no way can I open spots.
I tried today to open stream commissions but no takers so whatever. Things are just not looking in my favor, just to keep myself from falling into a horrible depression I have been watching Game Grumps non stop and hanging with David.
Bad thing is I got a commission from David's boss for a custom Fish Tank wallpaper. It's a $100 job and I REALLY want to paint it but I have been having a hard time picking up my pen.
I won't get paid till it's done but again I just can't deal right now. I want to get it done before my B-Day so I can at least have something so I can do something.
One of my friends that will not be named DO NOT ASK WHO is going through something horrible. Her fiance left after a break down and he is now in a place getting emotional and mental therapy. She isn't handling it well at all and she cannot be left alone in fear of suicide. Trust me she does need to be watched and it has me worried sick.
My dad moving back in has kinda done more damage and we are so far behind on bills now. David and I are practically confined in our room now and it's stressing me out. If you thought my dad got on my nerves imagine how I am now.
I again apologize for being so slow on commissions I have NEVER had this kind of problem before. If I had the spare money I would refund a few of them and trust me I HATE even the thought of that. All the things that have been going on has gotten me in such a nasty depressive funk I just don't know if I can get out.
I recently have gotten a strange boil/pimple on my neck/shoulder area and it FUCKING HURTS and I have a feeling it's a staph infection. I have had staph infections before and it resembles a similar one I have had on my arm. I haven't been able to sleep because laying on my right side hurts. It's making me crazy angry too so it sucks.
Ok now I need HONEST input on something. I have removed my journals with my most recent commission prices.
Can YOU guys price me? I want you to to link to pics of mine and say how much you would pay for it. HONEST opinions please. I want to know what you consider worth it. Remember I might be losing my job slowly so looks like I'm gonna have to continue to beg for money and continue drawing nasty porn just to make ends meet...
So now you know what's up and why I have been less active.
8 for sketches
10 for line art
15 for colored
18 for shading
for other things like extra characters and such...
5 for backgrounds
5 for extra characters
8 for adult themes
you have seen me bust my ass on my most detailed art
This is one reason why I may never take commissions again unless I absolutely need them
$10 for sketches
$15 for line art
$18 for coloured
$20 for shaded
fir extras, im more or less with what yoshi man says.
I would say however that 60 dollars is the least you should take for a pic with two chars and full color and shading. Prrrrobably more. Thing is people either tend to be cheapskates or honestly don't have much money fluid for commissions, so...yeah.
Now that's not saying your quality is sub-par or anything, so don't fret that. It's just between the economy being shit and many MANY artists doing super decent discounts, it's a hell of a fight.
For your friend, well it really sucks, but unless you can do anything about it, there's no sense in obsessing over her. She has her life, and you have yours. She's concerned with her life, and you need to, unfortunately to be honest, concerned with your own. Especially with your dad going back into the picture (I sure hope he helps you out this time. If not, then WHY is he back..??) your going to need to focus on your life, and learn to find things to ease your own mind. Take up some meditation, do some breathing exersizes, close your eyes and think about the moment. Not a second in the past and beyond, or a second in the future and beyond. Just the moment you're currently existing in. Then ask yourself, what is wrong? Not what's wrong on the other side of town or the other side of the house. Not what's due now because that can be handled later, unless you already have the solution. So focus on the NOW, the imediate NOW. Now is there a problem? Your not being harmed and your not dying, which is a step up from probably a few thousand other people. Tackle one problem at a time, not all at once.
As for that aquarium job you got.. have you tried finding things that used to inspire you and bring them back up? I bet you can tell when I checked out some ShowKaizer work because all of a sudden my doodles get more curves and the flare is there. Need to find your muse Mel :)