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12 years ago
I am, by no means popular and chances are no one will ever pay attention to me enough any more than any other people out there that has a remotely good art skills. Here is my story.
my name is Felix, it is my English name and what I'm called by almost everyone other than my family (of whom sometimes call me by my Chinese name instead) I have adopted the internet last name FireFox from my web sister, before which (and outside of my furry fandom persona) I'm use the number 2648.
I first started out when my fursona is created, he started off as a bunch of suicidal thoughts and my fantasy where life is easier as an animal with less things to worry about, he's been changed to a fox because of my love of fluffy tails and that fox are perceived as mysterious, silent and cunning.
I wrote story of fantasy on deviantART as a way to coping mechanism, and I really found it fun. It was something I've wanted to kept going until school work got too busy that I had to stop, and haven't picked it up ever since. Looking back I found my story to be extremely silly, filled with obvious writing cliches and joke reference, but I guess back then I thought it as one of the best things I've created (probably cause it's the only thing).
Within the year that I started, my story also lead me to the actual part of the furry fandom, when a stranger noticed uncanny similarities with a role play that he hosted more than a few years back before I started. It is complete coincidence, but thanks to him I was liked to Furry4Life, the website where I truely discovered the fandom for what it is, the connections to the rest of the fandom like FurAffinity, and I have met many friends. And it brings me more joy and emotional attachment than I have with reality.
It was at that point that I've vowed to myself, no matter how bad things come to in real life, I will never attempt suicide again. Not when there's something that I can look forward to. The thing is that while the fandom (or internet in general) is known for it's drama and it's force of driving people away from the place, besides the drama and sex, there are many, many people who are genuinely nice people (furs?) who care and will be there to support and help you.
While nowadays I only have a handful of friends online (in real life even less), however I want to help the fandom the way it helped me, I want to help people troubled with drama so that they won't push them away before I can know them. even if I'm not worth being a bother to them who have way more popularity than me.
I doubt anyone will actually spend the time on reading this, but since you have. Thank you for your time.
my name is Felix, it is my English name and what I'm called by almost everyone other than my family (of whom sometimes call me by my Chinese name instead) I have adopted the internet last name FireFox from my web sister, before which (and outside of my furry fandom persona) I'm use the number 2648.
I first started out when my fursona is created, he started off as a bunch of suicidal thoughts and my fantasy where life is easier as an animal with less things to worry about, he's been changed to a fox because of my love of fluffy tails and that fox are perceived as mysterious, silent and cunning.
I wrote story of fantasy on deviantART as a way to coping mechanism, and I really found it fun. It was something I've wanted to kept going until school work got too busy that I had to stop, and haven't picked it up ever since. Looking back I found my story to be extremely silly, filled with obvious writing cliches and joke reference, but I guess back then I thought it as one of the best things I've created (probably cause it's the only thing).
Within the year that I started, my story also lead me to the actual part of the furry fandom, when a stranger noticed uncanny similarities with a role play that he hosted more than a few years back before I started. It is complete coincidence, but thanks to him I was liked to Furry4Life, the website where I truely discovered the fandom for what it is, the connections to the rest of the fandom like FurAffinity, and I have met many friends. And it brings me more joy and emotional attachment than I have with reality.
It was at that point that I've vowed to myself, no matter how bad things come to in real life, I will never attempt suicide again. Not when there's something that I can look forward to. The thing is that while the fandom (or internet in general) is known for it's drama and it's force of driving people away from the place, besides the drama and sex, there are many, many people who are genuinely nice people (furs?) who care and will be there to support and help you.
While nowadays I only have a handful of friends online (in real life even less), however I want to help the fandom the way it helped me, I want to help people troubled with drama so that they won't push them away before I can know them. even if I'm not worth being a bother to them who have way more popularity than me.
I doubt anyone will actually spend the time on reading this, but since you have. Thank you for your time.
