My job is going well, mom is (hopefully) done with chemotherapy *knocks on wood*, I'm getting paid a lot, I'm learning how to drive and it's going well, but why the hell am I feeling so unaccomplished?

Oh yeah...

I have the drive at work to come home and draw or paint, but when I get home all I want to do is veg out and fall asleep. My older brother got his first car after 6 years yesterday, and I still l have yet to get my license. I have no access to a gym anymore like I had in college and I have no one to go with, all the while watching my older brother, who has always been smaller than me, bulk up. It's not like I'm gaining weight or getting fat, but... it's one of those things that makes me ask, "What the hell am I doing with myself?"

I think it just all comes down to me wanting to see what my college loan payments are going to be like come November. I have about a month or so left and I feel a bit safe with making a reasonable monthly payment from my income. It makes me nervous that I now have such a big bill hanging over my head that it's keeping me from wanting to pay for a driving school or a gym membership.

So... does anyone have any suggestions for me?... I mean, a lot of you know how tough it is to do anything after coming home from a daily 9-5 work shift. How do you find the drive to do something when you come home from work? I want to break the rut I'm in, so any kind of suggestion is appreciated.