I'm starting to type this journal at 2:48 PM EST. About 6 minutes ago, my mother was taken home after fighting so hard for 18 months against her cancer. She was very faithful to God so... I believe she saw something beautiful when she passed. It was one of the only smiles I saw on her face in those last few months of her life.

I don't really know what else to say... There's so much to say about my mother, and I don't want to write a wall of text and keep you all here for half an hour just to read it quickly...

I wanted to take this year to focus on working and just trying to forget about things. I don't know if I'm ever going to get over losing my mother, but then... who really does? It takes a year WITH THERAPY to be emotionally over the death of a loved one. I worked a stressful 40-hour-per-week job. That's something to help keep my mind off things, right? Heh...

So... now that the year is over, I have already started looking into getting back into digital drawing/painting, oil painting, all the mediums available to me. I want to start saving for a Windows Tablet and Corel Painter instead of a new Wacom Tablet and draw on my laptop. My Mac has become more of a personal-use computer anyway, and a Windows Tablet is more portable and I can just draw on that! I'll take that as my (possibly first ever) New Year's Resolution.

Anyway... If you have a moment today, for me, please raise a glass or a bottle, or say a prayer for my mother. May she rest in peace. And remember; in the words of my mother, "No crying, just laughter." It's not, "Goodbye." It's, "See you later."