Y'all should try Baileys mixed with milk ^^ or ice cream---tastes like Caramel.... @.@ needless to say I've had a glass or two... My real fav though is Tia Maria and milk ^^ don't let the bartenders fuck it up with ice... :P Enjoy my drunken rants yey...

Been playing wow lately..... -sniffs- I smell...I smell like shiney cookie>,> *inside joke!!* heh. *pours another glass...* Not really drunk just kind buzzed its my second glass but I'm finding the world quite funny----as if I've stayed up for 3-4 days ^^.. *hugs everyone reading this...hugs everyone that puts of with my nutty fara-ness-ness *dances to the Snuggle Bunny song* wheee ^,^!!! need moar!!! REFILL! I drink this stuff because it reminds me of my mate. Another sign that says "He Was Here" -sniffles- okay *Nsync came on.... this is a fairly good song "Something Like You"... Rhar I ish wearing my 4X lesbian shirt, (normally I wear 1---2X) ^^, well its huge and thats why I call it my lesbian shirt---no insults intended its my favorite shirt ^^.*bangs hang in her face, gets annoyed by the sleeves*sips* I cannot believe its been almost 3 weeks and his scent is still on the clothing thingy he gave me... He gave me alot of firsts too... things I've never tried---nor thought of trying... *bangs fall in her face...blows them away again*grr I have a feeling I'm not going to remember any of this.


Heh ^^-big gulp-dances-leans back against her leather chair and lays on to another chair at her side...the one he.......sat in....T-T mini Fara off the right side of the screen gets into a mini time machine and takes her thoughts back to the 11ths... OMG...he's so tall.. ^^- -goes over EVERYTHING...Every word....every emotion, every gesture analyzing it once more..
-father walks in offers him a glass of Baileys is denied giggles-


Wow o.o its almost the same time he got here. Is it not clear enough how much I miss him? It kills me not to have a date.. where we'll meet again, something to look forward to. I was hoping to see him for his birthday, but I have a feeling that won't happen still waiting on my surgery date. and after the surgery I'll be on a liquid diet---not as pervy as it seems(or as I'd like) I won't be allowed salt :P---heh for 6 months, then I'm supposed to work back up to 6-8 ounces of solid food. stuffs like yogurt, cottage cheese blah. Which all means maybe not Christmas. I really hope to see him for Christmas. But for now I needs a baf....I'll be around until 5-8 am... roaming around---poor little night walking bunnifox--wolf thing...



Yey this is the part where I listen to the song I heard in my head/heart when he went home...

"She held on to all she had left of him. Oh, and what could have been. And then the guns rang one last shot---And it felt like a bullet in her heart.
Baby why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever....
I can't even breathe"

o.o its not like he went off to war---he just went back his parents house... But I still feel the deep ache....