I feel like the shittiest person.
12 years ago
For the second time in my adult life, I've been crying.
A feat I didn't think possible.
I was in the hospital with my grandpa who raised me when he died, and nothing. My mother collapsed on me and I thought she died, I panicked, buy didn't cry. One of my best friends tells me to go to hell and fuck off, because the moved and I didn't keep in contact as much as they wanted, not a tear.
I spent the past five minutes bawling into my pillow because I hurt someone.
I don't even know how.
All I know is that I'm sorry and I wish I were dead.
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I know it's okay to cry. I just didn't think it was physically possible anymore.
At least you were able to spend time with your grandfather when he passed on. I can't remember how mine died, but I didn't find out till later...
Don't wish yourself dead, every one makes mistakes from time to time. you just need to learn from it.
*offers comforting bunnyhugs if they'll help...*
Feel free to note me if you need a sympathetic ear to vent at too.
Big bunny ears = good listeners, hehe.
The same goes for you.
I'm a pretty good listener too.
Kimi's a bunny too.
*twitches bunny nose cutely*