today i just found out that a friend of mine is near death, today he lost his pulse and blacked out completely. If it continues he surely won't live anymore. Im extremely worried. idk wat i'm going to do if i find out hes dead my life is never gonna be the same again. just thinking about makes me wanna cry honestly i talk to him everyday and everything won't be the same. i know when someone passes that ppl should go on and such, but shawn is like a little brother to me if he's gone, a part of me is gone too. i don't want to loose any more ppl in my life. i'm really scared...