Yesterday was a horrible day that started out nice. A simple trip to the park and meet up with my boyfriend had me feeling great, but then I went to a con with both my gf and bf and things got bad. emotions happened and now I believe I am either going to force myself out of the relationship or they are going to ask me to bow out. Its not confirmed but I know its coming.

Finally got home around 2 in the morning and my bf is trying to calm me down and it really didn't work. Spent all night and morning bawling my eyes out, and my father found me. Now to get away from all the stress of life, love, and work I'm going to be sent to NY for a week or two. Hopefully when I come back my head is clear and me my bf and gf can sort things out properly without the sting of fresh wounds and sore emotions.