Every year around my birthday I am miserable, not because I am getting older, but because I lost a close pet that I raised from being a baby. I also have the worst luck for a week, this year I did poorly on a cal test and was attack by yellow jackets. The day after it I am on top of the world. The thing I wonder it has been 5 years since that night where he just screamed for hours before passing on my 21 birthday, should I still be feeling so bad? I have many family members die that I was close to, but this seem to effect me as much. Is there something wrong with me?