How can you do this to me? Your only son..you never even let me talk...you just kept making things worse...why wouldn't you listen to me when I told you you were hurting me...did you even care? Would you care now? Would you even believe me?....so many questions that will never be answered...how could you just throw me aside like I was nothing? I thought I was your son...I feel more like your toy..I sit alone on the shelf when you have no use for me but when you take me off the shelf, you just insult me and throw me around, then it's back on the shelf. All alone...you don't know how it feels to be shelved. You shelved me away...your only son...do you care? You don't seem to...what did I ever do to deserve to be kicked aside like this?...am I still worth anything in your eyes? Am I worth less now....it sure feels that way. I thought I could trust you...but you betrayed me...I will never put my trust in you again...as if it ever mattered whether I trust you or not. You're still going to do whatever the hell your going to do and whatever I think about it sing gonna mean shit to you. You even told me to my face it didn't mean anything to you. You take no interest in anything I do..and only have something resembling a conversation when I've done something wrong....but I just want you to love me...I want you not to be disgusted with me anymore...please...love me again....that's all I want.,.youve already stomped on all of my dreams, I don't have a whole lot left to hold on to. I wish I had your love as one of those things to hold onto....but I don't guess I can have it....you never really were there for me...you never truly sat with me when I cried. You were there sitting next to me, but I know now it was all a lie. There's been countless nights where all I can do Is cry. You don't know how awful it is....to not be loved anymore...when it hits you, you realize you're NOTHING, to most if not everyone around you. You won't ever understand...how much it hurts..to be left alone by the ones who were supposed to love you...every day that passes me by, I wish you'd know how I feel, but you took the courage away from me...you already told me you don't care...so I don't even bother trying...I don't even know why I bothered writing this. It's not like you'll ever see it. Or anyone other than me is ever going to read this...just do me a favor...and leave me on the shelf this time....