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For the love of God, leave me alone
12 years ago
Everyone, I get it. You care. You want me to feel happy, to make me feel better, but it isn't working.
Anon, stop asking me to write stories. I can't, I won't.
Stop requesting stories from me everyone. I don't know if I'll ever continue Dinky Pie. I don't know if I even want to.
Does no one get what it's like being a nice guy? It's almost like being so sexy all the ladies want you- which is also something I've had to deal with. Every day, a million people ask me if I'm okay.
No, I'm not, and people just straight up asking isn't going to do me any good. In fact, it does me harm. I have to reply to you, or else I'm the asshole for ignoring you. It eats up my time when ten people in a single day all expect my time. Maybe some people can do that, but I'm not one of them. I want to either talk to one, maybe two people, and play a game. But I can't do that with everyone trying to cheer me up, when the only thing that can cheer me up is gone from my life and I'm not getting it back.
Everyone, please... leave me alone. I'm busy, I'm struggling to survive. I'll write when I want to. I'll make stories when I want to. I'm not going to be okay just because you ask me to. I'm not going to write just because you ask me to. I'm tired of helping others and pretending to be a ball of sunshine when I'm seething with hate.
Anon, stop asking me to write stories. I can't, I won't.
Stop requesting stories from me everyone. I don't know if I'll ever continue Dinky Pie. I don't know if I even want to.
Does no one get what it's like being a nice guy? It's almost like being so sexy all the ladies want you- which is also something I've had to deal with. Every day, a million people ask me if I'm okay.
No, I'm not, and people just straight up asking isn't going to do me any good. In fact, it does me harm. I have to reply to you, or else I'm the asshole for ignoring you. It eats up my time when ten people in a single day all expect my time. Maybe some people can do that, but I'm not one of them. I want to either talk to one, maybe two people, and play a game. But I can't do that with everyone trying to cheer me up, when the only thing that can cheer me up is gone from my life and I'm not getting it back.
Everyone, please... leave me alone. I'm busy, I'm struggling to survive. I'll write when I want to. I'll make stories when I want to. I'm not going to be okay just because you ask me to. I'm not going to write just because you ask me to. I'm tired of helping others and pretending to be a ball of sunshine when I'm seething with hate.
*Leaves you alone*
I've given you over 15,000 words, alright? I'm glad calorie liked it, but I really don't care. I'm not getting anything out of it except grief.
*hug*
Please get some rest, you need it.
Conflicted, don't respond to a single comment you get on this journal, including this one. Just keep pushing forward.
Yes and ... no.
Wanting you to feel "happy" is at best a rather ill defined goal, the mass murder of an entire army of spiders might make you "happy" but I wouldn't want you do do that to "feel happy".
I dunno you that well but I can see how much you are hurting.
I don't want you to be happy.
I don't even want things to be okay for you.
I would love to help make things less worse, in any way possible.
And if just leaving you alone for a bit is what helps most with that, it's cool.
I really do understand.
I'll be waiting with a big smile and a helping paw when you are ready.
Only it won't be the same fake smile, it'll be a happy one of seeing you feeling less worse.
If you want or need to talk more, drop me a note or im.
You should have just told me straight-up that you wanted to really be left alone rather than just pretend you're alright. In any case, I apologise for any grief that I have unknowingly caused you.
Hence, you're one of the three people I actually go on skype to see.
*huggles*
As much as others might hate the idea, why not start charging for commissions? You'll at least get some cash out of it. I will say try to create a limited slot to avoid any overload stress.
Also, don't worry about hurting my feelings; you have yourself to take care of first. I just wanted to say that in case if you do what with telling people to leave you alone.
There's no information about his commissions on either his profile or the "Commission Info" section.
I apologize if I sounded demanding. It just sounded as though he was only doing request, which is fine but...well.
I'm not gonna say anything long or cheery here. This is the honest truth. And it'll be short.
Wanting solitude is perfectly okay. If you feel bad about that at all, don't. It's fine. Especially with how many people always talk to you.
As I've said so many times, if you need anything, anything, feel free to ask.
All I know is that if it hurts me to see you like this, then I can't even imagine the kind of pain you must be going through. And for that, I really, truly am sorry.
I wish I could help, but I know I can't. So I'll give you the best I can do. I'll offer my time on the off-chance you ever need someone to talk to. I know that means about jack-shit coming from a total stranger. Other than that, I'll let you be. If I do know one thing, it's that wonds will only heal if you don't pick at them.
I'm sorry. I really, really am.
Guess I have been selfish, sorry. :#