Well hello hello once again!
After a very long partial break, I am back in art. Now, I know, I'm just a beginner, and I'm just a girl whose art really isn't all that great, but I really do try! And I can only hope to achieve your respect as an artist. But when I do my work, I don't expect a million comments, shares, or even views to be honest. I just love to share my work with the furry world and I love you all enough to think that I can share! I haven't been updating a whole lot, but I can explain why.
You see, I hate to admit this.. But I am no longer a model.
I don't have a modeling career as of right now.
When you're a model, you're not supposed to have flaws. And if you do, well, you're either branded or your shoved into this file cabinet just hoping that someday some editor or modeling agency will grab you. It's a bunch of waiting, and sometimes never getting.
My modeling agency has dropped me, after a long 7 or 8 months. Due to the fact that I started self harm again.
You see, I've harmed myself in the past, but the scars were just a reminder that the past is where I can't be anymore... And they stated that if I were to continue, they'd have to discontinue me.
So a few days ago, I went to see my manager (he called me in). He had me do a body search, in which two security officers had to have me strip naked while they searched me for new scars...
And they found them. :/ In a place I never expected anybody to pay attention to when I was doing a photoshoot. They found several new ones, and some old ones from a few months ago.
Which made my manager look at me and say, "Sorry Sierra, we have to let you go."


......
It broke my heart. I've been sitting in my room aimlessly trying to wrap my head around this, and I can't.

I know what I've done, and because of it, my future possible career is down the shitter.
In the matter of a few hours...
Poof.
Gone.
All that hard work to lose weight, do what they said, and do what they wanted from me, all the new wardrobe, the makeup, the new hair.
Everything.
Gone.
Just like that.


So for the past couple days, I've been sitting here. Just ticking my time away, unsure of where to go.
I started drawing again, and like I said, I can only hope to please you all.
I'm still doing requests, but seeing as how I wasn't online here for the longest, I have virtually nobody.
So please, if you want something, just ask. Just.. Do something.



I've been sitting here trying to find myself all over again, and I just need something to distract myself from the slow grasp of depression. I can feel it kneading at me. It's just driving me crazy.


With all this, being said anyway, I do apologize in a great advance for anything upsetting, and or not to what my usual standards be.


I'm sorry...