I hate a lot right now.
I hate... how my mother is still trying to recover from cancer and is still getting sick every day.
I hate how my two best friends are broken up after a 7 year relationship and are hurting.
I hate how I can't let shit that's over and done with go, mainly the shit storm that happened at the end of my final semester at college.
I hate the feeling os suspecting my own father may have a problem with me and isn't telling me about it.
I hate not having the drive to pick up a pencil or paint brush sometime during the day.
I hate how my father, who was all about trying to make sure my brother and I kept our faith, now feels that he has lost his own faith. I have never seen him this discouraged, angry, and lost because of my mother's cancer.

I hate it all... and most of the time I don't know how I'm going through it.


*Sigh* Forgive me... it's just one of those times when I need to vent.