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Just thinking
12 years ago
I’ve been having many a thought recently, and being the logical person I am, I decided to write them down and see if I could make sense of them. But being the rubbish writer I am this will probably make no sense. I thought they may flow better if I made it like a journal and if so, why not post it as my first one? Got to start somewhere.
So about a month or two back, when I really got into this for a while, I had quite a few commissions coming in. I think that was good and they set quite a president for my likes and allowed me to chat with a few of you. It seems like at the moment they have slowed down a bit; I’m still getting them in and waiting for some bigger longer term ones. But I’ve just been thinking about it.
At the moment several things are happening; firstly university is becoming busy, work and all that stuff which most people will know about. It’s not all consuming at the moment but it’s distracting. Also dying my hair un-natural colours has helped on that front :) .
Secondly I’m trying to work out the issues I mention on my front page, through various means. I guess that is satisfying my want for the “darker” side and possibly why some of the bigger commissions, from artists I really like, that I’m getting are pg (also want something I can actually show off), or just general ych/ basic commissions (which are usually lighter play) instead of seeking out artists for specific needs (I’m still keen to get some more fetish work, just haven’t found the right art or idea).
So that’s just my rational, I’m not sure if it is right, if this actually means anything at all (and I’ve just said a whole load of nothing) or I’m mixing up things in my head. I guess I can look over this in a while and see if it is right or not.
So about a month or two back, when I really got into this for a while, I had quite a few commissions coming in. I think that was good and they set quite a president for my likes and allowed me to chat with a few of you. It seems like at the moment they have slowed down a bit; I’m still getting them in and waiting for some bigger longer term ones. But I’ve just been thinking about it.
At the moment several things are happening; firstly university is becoming busy, work and all that stuff which most people will know about. It’s not all consuming at the moment but it’s distracting. Also dying my hair un-natural colours has helped on that front :) .
Secondly I’m trying to work out the issues I mention on my front page, through various means. I guess that is satisfying my want for the “darker” side and possibly why some of the bigger commissions, from artists I really like, that I’m getting are pg (also want something I can actually show off), or just general ych/ basic commissions (which are usually lighter play) instead of seeking out artists for specific needs (I’m still keen to get some more fetish work, just haven’t found the right art or idea).
So that’s just my rational, I’m not sure if it is right, if this actually means anything at all (and I’ve just said a whole load of nothing) or I’m mixing up things in my head. I guess I can look over this in a while and see if it is right or not.
I do feel you on the fetish art. It was ridiculously freeing for me to get a piece of ballbusting art, just so I can kind of say "Hey, this is something I like" without having to feel like an embarrassed little butthead every time I had to bring it up in conversation. It's nice, and helped me find people I enjoy, sort of like how I met you. :3
I've noticed the same thing here though about the "darker" side. While I personally have my own issues as to why I like sex.. someone mentioned earlier.. that on SFW my profile was basically empty. I.. didn't really realize it until it was mentioned, but it bothered me a little. I'm sort of hoping to one day get some more monies to fill it in with other pieces I can show off of my character, and not be entirely sexually oriented.
I kinda feel ya, but I don't totally know I understand what you're saying. Iffen you wanna chit chat, lemme know sweetie.
As I said I'm trying to work it out a bit and I'm being quite vague there. I guess this is more tailored towards why this area and why there is less fetish based art, but the reasons apply to my life in other aspects, so it got a bit tangled up.