At times i ask my self what keeps me going what keeps me alive a point to living with a life so full of hate and evil if lost contrail of will tern me in to the monster that today sum won called me, that a thing like me has no point and no right to be on these planet, for me these strikes deep to a person that has never bin told I love you, I need you, or even a hart felt embrace, never relay happy. At times i stop and think what if that car crash 4 years ago was stronger, cud it have ended my life? but stuff like that is in the past. I'm at the point that ill just stop being the nice person that all the people see me as. If I'm the monster that is in side me then ill just let it consume me. I have past up tune's of things that cud make my life happy just to see the owns i call friends happy. and not one thanks or helping hand to fined my way threw the dark. I have had it with all the back stabling, My blood has bin shed for the very same people that i called my family and to be treated like a monster! these day has to be by far wrest day of my life!