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12 years ago
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Good news; tomorrow, I write the final exam for my final university course. I've effectively graduated with two bachelor degrees, though I won't get the paperwork until February.
Bad news;
[*] Teacher Certification, which is required for all school teachers, isn't available until July. This means I can't get a job doing what I'm trained for
[*] Even if I had it now, nobody is hiring computer teachers, and I'm not trained to teach in a normal classroom
[*] Because I can't get a good job, I can't afford to live on my own anymore. I'm moving back in with my parents
[*] I'm being pressured by both parents to go back to working at the local grocery store. The only reason I didn't slit my wrists with my nametag LAST time was because I knew it was going to end when I went back to school.
[*] I have six months from tomorrow to start making full payments on my debt, which I can't afford to do on a minimum wage job.
[*] Because I need to be saving up for these payments, I don't know if I'll be able to meet the person I've been trying to see for over three years this summer.
[*] My parents don't seem to see any of the above as a problem, nor do a lot of friends. Everyone keeps telling me to calm down, things will work out.
HOW?!? HOW exactly will everything work out? I'm broke, my local friends seem to be avoiding me, I can't afford to see my distant friends, I have no job, no way of GETTING a real job, and if I don't start paying off my debt soon, I'll force my FAMILY to cover it all, which THEY can't afford. I fail to see how everything is alright with my life, and how things will start getting better soon. Please enlighten me
TL;DR: Life sucks and I'm a whiny broke bitch with no future
Bad news;
[*] Teacher Certification, which is required for all school teachers, isn't available until July. This means I can't get a job doing what I'm trained for
[*] Even if I had it now, nobody is hiring computer teachers, and I'm not trained to teach in a normal classroom
[*] Because I can't get a good job, I can't afford to live on my own anymore. I'm moving back in with my parents
[*] I'm being pressured by both parents to go back to working at the local grocery store. The only reason I didn't slit my wrists with my nametag LAST time was because I knew it was going to end when I went back to school.
[*] I have six months from tomorrow to start making full payments on my debt, which I can't afford to do on a minimum wage job.
[*] Because I need to be saving up for these payments, I don't know if I'll be able to meet the person I've been trying to see for over three years this summer.
[*] My parents don't seem to see any of the above as a problem, nor do a lot of friends. Everyone keeps telling me to calm down, things will work out.
HOW?!? HOW exactly will everything work out? I'm broke, my local friends seem to be avoiding me, I can't afford to see my distant friends, I have no job, no way of GETTING a real job, and if I don't start paying off my debt soon, I'll force my FAMILY to cover it all, which THEY can't afford. I fail to see how everything is alright with my life, and how things will start getting better soon. Please enlighten me
TL;DR: Life sucks and I'm a whiny broke bitch with no future
Some say the universe gives what you put out. In other words..try to think abit more positively while you're going through this rough patch. Goods things will typically come to those who can remain positive and push foward. I know it's hard ,but you can't just mope in a corner :<. Push onward.
The grocery store is a job. It's better then no job. And while that may not seem like a lot ,there are plenty out there without any sort of income :<.
On another note, I know loan people will understand if you're not making enough for a minimal payment. The loan people for my mom's loan lowered how much she needed to pay per month, simply because she didn't have a job yet. It's nice. You should talk to them to see what they can do. Don't be embarassed...they've heard this a lot ,and may be able to help.
Sorry if this sounds straigth foward. I'm just trying to help.