I try to being this journal and I guess I am just having great difficulty, difficulty searching for the right words to say. '

Today I attended the memorial Service for my good friend Trey, and I have to say the day was pretty stressful, but in a good kind of way, if that makes sense. I just wanted to be their for the family and others who have known my friend that I have known since 2008. Honestly this is a very hard time for me, not only because I've lost someone that was a good friend of mine but for many other reasons as well which I dont care to discuse here.

The day itself went pretty good. The person I am living with offered me a ride and I got up early in the morning and he drove me to Rochester. I met with my Mom and she got my suit for me, the one my Grandmother bought for me. I got changed and left with her to go to the cemetary where Trey will eventually be burried. My good friend  docredwolf came to the cemetary and got dropped off by his mom. I am really thankful for him and his support, I deffinitly need friends like him as I go through this hard time in my life, and I do appreaciate everyone for their thoughts and prayrs.

I met with  DocRedWolf at the Cemetary after his moom dropped him off and we went to the place where Trey will be burried. At frist I didnt know if he was actually burried there already. I spoke with the Mom of Trey and she said that he wasnt burried yet. I talked to her and some other people and offered my support for such a hard time for everyone.

I was informed that people were going to my to the Pastor's house. I knew him from when I went to a Calvary Chapel in the Rochester area. My Mom brought me, my sister and Doc to the Pastor's house and I hung out there for a little while before everyone got ready and left for the Church. We got to the chruch and the memorial service went well. I even got to speak a few words in memorium of Trey. Latter on I was told by a few people that it was really nice what I said. I gave a drawing I made of Trey and his self portrait used for the memorial service and I gave that to his Mom, she thanked me for it and for comming out for the memorial. After a while people bagain leaving and I said my goodbye's to a few people and then I went with my Mom, my little sister and Doc and we stopped by his dads house and picked up a few things and then my mom drove me to Doc's, Mom's house. My mom left me and I said goodbye to her and thanked her for the ride. As of now I'm staying at Doc's place until tomorrow, although I wish I could stay longer...

I could use you guys for support, I'm not asking for your moeny or anything like that, just your time and words.

I would ask that you take a look at these songs if you have time

VNV Nation "Beloved"
A great song and one that has helped me emensly through this hard time in my life: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kfc3zcnrWMQ

DeVotchKa "How It Ends"
This one has a more personal story to it. Both me and Trey loved playing Gears of War 2 together. "How It Ends" was the song that was in hte main Gears of War 2 trailer and is considered to be the games theme song. The song's mood and meaning also give me encouragment and comfrot through this difficult time and it will be a song that I will always remember him by.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kfc3zcnrWMQ

I know that Trey is in a much better place and that one day we will meet again, in a place where no pain remains, no feeling, just eternity awaits.

Rest in peace dear friend you will be missed, but never forgotten.