Hello to all my followers, all 128 of them. First of all I wish to thank you for being with me, whether you were there since the beginning or if you're just joining me now, thank you. I have recently been doing some thing thinking. I'm not really sure what I have been thinking about however I've stayed up with it on my mind. Most of it being rather human things like where I am I going with my life and just how serious am I going to take myself? I know that I'm only 19 so I still have many, many years to answer those questions. However part of me is wanting the answers a bit sooner than later. That being said I'm thinking of restarting my life one bit at a time, gradually over time so that if things don't work out I'm not completely screwed. Starting with this massive reboot is my furry self, and where I stand in the furry fandom. As I talk with several other furries, just in chat rooms and what not, I've been seeing a trend that for the past six years I've been abandoning. Many people use their fursonas as a canvas for not what they are but more so as what they want to be. I know that is somewhat common knowledge, and almost a slap to the face requirement for the designing of one's fursona. However ever since I created Arara I never really felt connected to the character. I never felt that he was me... if that makes sense. Adding Xzi as my secondary fursona did help a little however still I feel... empty about it. Another thing that always bothered me was my art. I never took it seriously. Yes it's cute and adorable, however I rarely found myself enjoying it all that much as I have other styles that I viewed on FA, and even other styles that I experimented with. I'm hoping that with this start up I can find a look for myself and something that I can be proud of, something I can at least enjoy. I'm probably over reacting and exaggerating however it is how I feel. That being said, I already created a new account with a new fursona that I spent a good few weeks planning out and making it something that I feel comfortable with. I'm not saying that I'm abandoning this account... not yet at least. However I'm going to try to upload art on the new account once I can get access to my drawing tablet, which is a few weeks. If you wish to follow me there send me a note and I'll send you a link to the new page. If you wish to unfollow me here I understand. If you wish to skim past this as another journal that you're not going to read I still understand... I don't know what else to put.... I think I'm going to take a nap now...