time to reveal it...
12 years ago
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ok, I think its time I take that out of my chest:
some of you might know, I'm not a good liar, and when I do, everytime I have to keep a lie, I feel a bad feeling inside here, so I cant keep this lie, even though i managed to fool everybody for a whole year.
yes, I was fooling all my friends for a whole year, I expect everyone now to hate me, but I'm not afraid, this journal is open for angry coments and my inbox is ready for all of your Notes, go ahead, I'll face it.
I've kept for nearly...5 years, the idea that I'm a clean artist, that I wont draw anything adult/mature, even though my best friends draw/request this kind of art, I cant help they are so kind and friendly, and sometimes such good artists that helped me learn so many things to improve my own art, even unaware of that.
But curiosity got the best of me, and I helped a friend with OCs, I'd rather not point any names, but you guys already know, I was just helping with the inking, and the anatomy, but these OCs were hyper-themed, and after seeing the feedback when my friend posted, I decided to give it a try and make some more adult/mature art.
So far you might be wondering what is about this whole year lying. well, here it goes....I didnt teach my friend
centaurus anything about anatomy and shit, its ME. its another account I created to try adult art. But I'm a coward and I was afraid of what my friends would think of me, after so many fucking years building this ninny reputation of clean artist.
I AM
centaurus
I've been making this different art style and all (which I admit, I kinda liked some anatomy changes like making big hands and feets, simple muscles, etc) to keep this idea its not the same artists (considering I knew a few artists with similar styles, was a good idea at the time) because I couldnt shake off my head the though "how would be if I had done more adult art from the beggining?" and I think I already have a clear idea, so its time to stop beeing a lying moron and don fol my friends anymore, you dont deserve any illusion, so I'm showng you who I'm.
Now, I admit, I dont have much of an imagination for porn, you can actually notice how my C-pics (thats how I call my pics as centaurus, to avoid mixing up with my friends who I told already) lack any fetish besides hyper-sized bodies and those kinky outfits (actually, I have a lot of creativity for creating outfits, adult or not) and even my stories are rather simple, I actually take a lot of ideas from awesome writters like
superwaffle, dam he knows how to push our buttons. And also, there is ANOTHER reason my Centaurus pics are black-white-gray, thing is, the idea is that i make these pics as fast as possible, because, well, some doestn know, I live with my family, and they are quite good in poking their noses where they shouldnt, so I'd DIE out of embarassment if they ever take a glance out of what I'm doing.
But well, thats it, guys, its still me, your friend, I'm always helpful whateer you guys ask, I like to offer a lot of advices regarding psychological problems, pulling a little "Freud"-moment when necessary, I'll keep both accounts,
centaurus for everything mature/adult you guys ask or I feel like drawing. I dont know how you guys will react, but again, curiosity gets the best of me, just hope I dont leave you guys with a bad taste in the mouth :)
ergotth =
centaurus
ok, I think its time I take that out of my chest:
some of you might know, I'm not a good liar, and when I do, everytime I have to keep a lie, I feel a bad feeling inside here, so I cant keep this lie, even though i managed to fool everybody for a whole year.
yes, I was fooling all my friends for a whole year, I expect everyone now to hate me, but I'm not afraid, this journal is open for angry coments and my inbox is ready for all of your Notes, go ahead, I'll face it.
I've kept for nearly...5 years, the idea that I'm a clean artist, that I wont draw anything adult/mature, even though my best friends draw/request this kind of art, I cant help they are so kind and friendly, and sometimes such good artists that helped me learn so many things to improve my own art, even unaware of that.
But curiosity got the best of me, and I helped a friend with OCs, I'd rather not point any names, but you guys already know, I was just helping with the inking, and the anatomy, but these OCs were hyper-themed, and after seeing the feedback when my friend posted, I decided to give it a try and make some more adult/mature art.
So far you might be wondering what is about this whole year lying. well, here it goes....I didnt teach my friend
centaurus anything about anatomy and shit, its ME. its another account I created to try adult art. But I'm a coward and I was afraid of what my friends would think of me, after so many fucking years building this ninny reputation of clean artist.I AM
centaurusI've been making this different art style and all (which I admit, I kinda liked some anatomy changes like making big hands and feets, simple muscles, etc) to keep this idea its not the same artists (considering I knew a few artists with similar styles, was a good idea at the time) because I couldnt shake off my head the though "how would be if I had done more adult art from the beggining?" and I think I already have a clear idea, so its time to stop beeing a lying moron and don fol my friends anymore, you dont deserve any illusion, so I'm showng you who I'm.
Now, I admit, I dont have much of an imagination for porn, you can actually notice how my C-pics (thats how I call my pics as centaurus, to avoid mixing up with my friends who I told already) lack any fetish besides hyper-sized bodies and those kinky outfits (actually, I have a lot of creativity for creating outfits, adult or not) and even my stories are rather simple, I actually take a lot of ideas from awesome writters like
superwaffle, dam he knows how to push our buttons. And also, there is ANOTHER reason my Centaurus pics are black-white-gray, thing is, the idea is that i make these pics as fast as possible, because, well, some doestn know, I live with my family, and they are quite good in poking their noses where they shouldnt, so I'd DIE out of embarassment if they ever take a glance out of what I'm doing.But well, thats it, guys, its still me, your friend, I'm always helpful whateer you guys ask, I like to offer a lot of advices regarding psychological problems, pulling a little "Freud"-moment when necessary, I'll keep both accounts,
centaurus for everything mature/adult you guys ask or I feel like drawing. I dont know how you guys will react, but again, curiosity gets the best of me, just hope I dont leave you guys with a bad taste in the mouth :)
ergotth =
centaurus
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If anyone thinks that's a ood enough reason to dislike someone i'll punch their teeth out.
So it's all cool to me.
On the hand, I believe a sizeable number of Freud's theories are now moot, so I'm wondering how you'll pull them off in the event you have to.
Personally though, I'm glad you've finally cleared your head over this issue of a dual account identity. I know a large number of artists out there have similar arrangements so I don't believe this will leave me treating you any differently.
With regards to everyone else though, let people say what they may and deal with them accordingly. If you have made peace with your decisions, and I believe you have, then all there is to it now is see it through. You have reached the bridge, now it's time to cross it.
I can also empathise with how you crafted this relationship between two accounts, sometimes the need for secrecy results in various situations you'd adapt to. In this case, I see you have weighed both the cost and the benefits subject to your developing sense of morality. The cost was to craft a lie you knew you could not keep, and the benefit was the freedom of posting your art for a hungry audience. And now you have weighed the cost and the benefits again only for it to weigh the other way. You're only human after all, don't worry about it, I'm sure now that you've cleared the air things would start smoothening out ^_^
The "freud" thing is that I'm always trying some psychological aporach when I have my friends derp in emotional conflict, I just cant avoid giving a few words or days-worth of encouraging chat :)
You excel so greatly it doesn't even matter C: *gawdmuzclehug*
It's pretty regular, I think, and since it was your own decision not to tell anybody about your "dirty" account, there's nothing to be ashamed of =)
I'm glad to hear, that your fear about being revealed as a porn-artist is over now, and you're open to talk about it.
Oh.
And cause I'm watching you both, I hope to see more art from you two. Porn or not porn, it doesn't matter. =)