For a while now, it's been impossible to keep positive.

It's been too much to try and be positive. I can't draw worth shit anymore, and the only thing I drew was a character design for a manga I want to start working on, but realized he looks too much like a Naruto and Bleach fuck baby.

*sigh*. this life is getting too in the way to actually live life, and it's burdoning my closest friends... I feel like a monster. A beast I can't control.

I'm still in here, I promise... The caring, loving person is still in here... He just doesn't know how to get out of this creature and live again.

He needs a change in life completely though. A new life in a new town with a new name and a new significant other, just.... everything. Then maybe he can learn to be himself again...

But he has no idea where that place is, or where to start looking.