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Where did my time go?
12 years ago
I can haz head?
Soooooo....
I was poking around FA and the internet doing my normal morning rounds of art, journals, pokes and posts when I happened to glance at my own journal.
I realized the date on it said three months...
I proclaimed aloud something along the line, "What the ****? Three months no way. That is a dirty, dirty lie." Which took place just as someone walked into my little computerized office of doom, best part... they gave me a questioning look and slowly backed away only to return later with their question.
After poking around I found that yes it had been three months. Where the heck did my time go? I swore I was only a week behind on my writing, or maybe at most two.
In truth I was like ten or so weeks behind... That was depressing to realize.
The short and the long of it is (Short) life has been hectic; (long) I moved and now live with my wonderful mate who is an absolute delight to live with. But the move wasn't graceful on some of my possessions, namely my old computer chair, which has now been scraped out to repair other chairs. I have been fighting tooth and nail for a promotion at work and studying for the big review day like mad. The mate and I have been spending a lot of time with friends, doing things and hanging out with the locals. After it all I just want to relax and what better way than with the holiday gaming releases that eat up the tiny amount of time I have left to myself at the end of the day.
You can stop reading here if you like the rest is pretty much just sleepy ramblings...
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Overall this week has been an emotional roller coaster, and at times like this I wonder if I wasted my time. In truth it is mostly my fault, but I figure it might help to get it out of my head and organized on pape.... a word processor... meh whatever.
To start we all got word that we were all getting a December 1st raise.
Yay, more money! What’s that you say? I lose all my tenure and merit raises...
Ok ok, so I still get more money right? Kind of?... I don’t really like that answer....
That is good and all, but new hires and my years of experience will be paid the same?
Right.... And my promotion has been delayed for seven months, while two others got theirs?
It is ok I have been managing to scrap by with no savings, extra money or spare budget this long...
Oh! Hey look that automatic payment that wasn’t supposed to come out until after the 20th decided to come out on the 12th before payday.
And I got sick last week, so I have to find money for the doctor bill...
Looks like yes, yes I will be working those 30ish hours of overtime and cancel a ton of plans...
Oh and I don’t have gas to get to work this week, especially with extra shifts?
Its ok, I’ll just cut back to one meal a day and dip into my food budget.
Of course I haven’t been able to afford new black out curtains either, and now hunger on top of light while I am trying to sleep means I pretty much can’t.
What’s that? You mean if you don’t sleep you eventually crash from exhaustion?
Boy that sucks, especially when you got plans... with your mate and friends who now all got ticked off because you didn’t sleep when you normally do and ruin all their plans.
Like I said it is pretty much my fault, so self-disappointment and depression are fairly garneted at this stage.
Look at that who-da-thunk that depression would make it harder to sleep because you’re left alone with your thoughts in bed.
Guess I’ll get up and do stuff around the house until I pass out again.
And.... Nope didn’t do it fast enough now I’m going to have to ditch out on more plans.
And disappoint more people... and yep... there comes that slap of self-loathing again.
What is that internet? You have a new form of virtual entertainment for me to sink into so I don’t think about how horrible of a person I am...
Sure I’ll just do that until I pass out today, but wait that is kind of slow right?
Your right, a little verbal lashing for ditching more plans will sting the same no matter the reason.
But actually you lied, you crafty internet, it sucks worse. I didn’t even get anything meaningful done and when the lashing came it stung more...
Hey boss-man, how’s the day going? You say my promotion has been delayed another two weeks?
That is great it is not like I am living paycheck to paycheck and the extra 400 a month would help or anything...
Whelp about all I have left now is snuggles when I can get them, and the blissful moment when my body shuts down and I can finally get some rest.
Blah.... Life
Oh well I’ll figure it out like I always do and keep moving on, it’s all you can do in the end.
< ^ ,....., ^ >
Finis
I was poking around FA and the internet doing my normal morning rounds of art, journals, pokes and posts when I happened to glance at my own journal.
I realized the date on it said three months...
I proclaimed aloud something along the line, "What the ****? Three months no way. That is a dirty, dirty lie." Which took place just as someone walked into my little computerized office of doom, best part... they gave me a questioning look and slowly backed away only to return later with their question.
After poking around I found that yes it had been three months. Where the heck did my time go? I swore I was only a week behind on my writing, or maybe at most two.
In truth I was like ten or so weeks behind... That was depressing to realize.
The short and the long of it is (Short) life has been hectic; (long) I moved and now live with my wonderful mate who is an absolute delight to live with. But the move wasn't graceful on some of my possessions, namely my old computer chair, which has now been scraped out to repair other chairs. I have been fighting tooth and nail for a promotion at work and studying for the big review day like mad. The mate and I have been spending a lot of time with friends, doing things and hanging out with the locals. After it all I just want to relax and what better way than with the holiday gaming releases that eat up the tiny amount of time I have left to myself at the end of the day.
You can stop reading here if you like the rest is pretty much just sleepy ramblings...
< ^ ,....., ^ >
Overall this week has been an emotional roller coaster, and at times like this I wonder if I wasted my time. In truth it is mostly my fault, but I figure it might help to get it out of my head and organized on pape.... a word processor... meh whatever.
To start we all got word that we were all getting a December 1st raise.
Yay, more money! What’s that you say? I lose all my tenure and merit raises...
Ok ok, so I still get more money right? Kind of?... I don’t really like that answer....
That is good and all, but new hires and my years of experience will be paid the same?
Right.... And my promotion has been delayed for seven months, while two others got theirs?
It is ok I have been managing to scrap by with no savings, extra money or spare budget this long...
Oh! Hey look that automatic payment that wasn’t supposed to come out until after the 20th decided to come out on the 12th before payday.
And I got sick last week, so I have to find money for the doctor bill...
Looks like yes, yes I will be working those 30ish hours of overtime and cancel a ton of plans...
Oh and I don’t have gas to get to work this week, especially with extra shifts?
Its ok, I’ll just cut back to one meal a day and dip into my food budget.
Of course I haven’t been able to afford new black out curtains either, and now hunger on top of light while I am trying to sleep means I pretty much can’t.
What’s that? You mean if you don’t sleep you eventually crash from exhaustion?
Boy that sucks, especially when you got plans... with your mate and friends who now all got ticked off because you didn’t sleep when you normally do and ruin all their plans.
Like I said it is pretty much my fault, so self-disappointment and depression are fairly garneted at this stage.
Look at that who-da-thunk that depression would make it harder to sleep because you’re left alone with your thoughts in bed.
Guess I’ll get up and do stuff around the house until I pass out again.
And.... Nope didn’t do it fast enough now I’m going to have to ditch out on more plans.
And disappoint more people... and yep... there comes that slap of self-loathing again.
What is that internet? You have a new form of virtual entertainment for me to sink into so I don’t think about how horrible of a person I am...
Sure I’ll just do that until I pass out today, but wait that is kind of slow right?
Your right, a little verbal lashing for ditching more plans will sting the same no matter the reason.
But actually you lied, you crafty internet, it sucks worse. I didn’t even get anything meaningful done and when the lashing came it stung more...
Hey boss-man, how’s the day going? You say my promotion has been delayed another two weeks?
That is great it is not like I am living paycheck to paycheck and the extra 400 a month would help or anything...
Whelp about all I have left now is snuggles when I can get them, and the blissful moment when my body shuts down and I can finally get some rest.
Blah.... Life
Oh well I’ll figure it out like I always do and keep moving on, it’s all you can do in the end.
< ^ ,....., ^ >
Finis
DonutDobie
~donutdobie
Boom, time should like mega fast forward so I can see you at Furry Fiesta anyways. CRANK DAT CLOCK WIME TIZARD
