speaking of ba humbug I just watched a christmas carole

what do you mean exactly by asshole ?

its like they say, if someone points at you for something, 3 are pionting back at them.

Nobody's saying that I am a jerk. It's just that no matter how I work through said mental conversation, someone ends up upset, and my thought process immediately goes to: "Wow... You're an asshole..." because everyone isn't happy.

i know, but its just a saying.
i make mental conversations with my other sides of me, and i think of my self the same way, but when i make someone upset i just tell them "if your not happy, it wont make me feel any better" sometimes it turns the tables sometimes it doesn't. but yeah,

but deep down, the outside world is a prison, you and your inner thoughts are the door to escape that reality, because nobody in this world isn't happy for anything anymore its all a fake smiles and fake appreciation

I fake smiles all the time. Appreciation is not faked, however, cause I'm used to doing everything by myself. So, wen someone DOES do something for me, it's like... "Wow! Someone was nice!"

my basic reaction to someone being nice "well, thats er...nice i guess."

Mentally, I question it. "What do they want from me, and why?"

Strange i always think that as well