I hate when something so small permeates deep into my mind drawing out the deeper parts of my past and reminding me of my tortured past keeping me awake trying to understand why it can still get to me as if it was just yesterday... confusing as it can be I have to be strong and always live for now and think of all the wonderful things about my future now... the past is the past but rarely do I have a single day where I do not recall the mistakes I have made and how I strive to never repeat them again... That is the true strenghth of the human spirit and my spirit... I must always move forward and always be strong... may God bless~ Telek Loving my life past present and future