the second i let my guard down more bullshit happens. I was talking to my girlfriend tonight and she started commenting about how she wanted to have a girl on the side. being bisexual and all, of course i said no and of course she didnt really like it. I told her straight up that I was scared that if she does then she will leave me for this random broad hell it wouldnt be the first time shit like that happened. She doesnt seem to understand how much it hurts to know that i'll never be enough to satisfy her..I know it's me too there is no way in hell that shit happens twice in a row without it being my fault. Maybe i should just accept the fact that i am going to be alone forever and there is nothing i can do about it because i just simply suck as a person. It's crazy how it's 4am, im in an emotional roller coaster, shaking like a bitch and my first instinct is to go on here and bitch about it. almost as if someone out there actually reads this and gives a damn. All in all i know they dont.....they say they do but they dont....