I'd Like to Thank Everyone first of all for 500 Pageviews. Thanks for showing the Love Everyone! I've been in a downer of a mood the past couple of days probably why I haven't journaled. Why you ask? 2008 was for me a very Tough and Heart Breaking Year. February brought me the Greatest Joy of My Life..."R". When "R" came into my Life (also a Fur btw) This Wolf was and still is the Love of my Life. The Wonderful thing was he chased me....We had 9 Wonderful weeks together. I was Happier than I'd been in such a long time! Then on May 6 it was all Gone...He Left me with "It's Not Working" That's all I got. If you wonder why I have trust issues well There it is in a Nutshell. The Trouble is that when you wear your Heart on your Sleeve (which is the only way I know) You are Vulnerable. I was. In a single moment "R" managed to rip my Heart to pieces. Is that all there is I ask? 2008 has not been a good year for me for the most part. 2009 I Honestly Don't Know?? I see my Friends Happy and in Love. I Want that For me too. And for the record I'm Gay & attracted to Younger men for which I make no apologies. So Many People Have Someone who Loves Them exactly for Who they are and to share their lives with. Is that so much to ask for me??


Wolfl