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sometimes I hate my brain
12 years ago
I've got a weird brain. Someone once referred to my "Ipod mind". To put it simply, I like music a lot and even when I'm not listening to music I'm often hearing some remembered song in my head. I sometimes have original songs appear in my dreams, not complex stuff but basic things that I don't think I've heard before. Sometimes I wake up with the theme song to my last dream still playing in my head.
But the thing is, my subconscious sometimes communicates to me through music. More to the point it teases me through music. The best way I can explain with an example. Ages ago I knew someone who had some kind of problem where she had a hole in her heart. One day she was explaining it, and all of a sudden the Extreme song Hole Hearted started playing in my head. And the thing is it takes me a moment to realize what's happened. This is definitely my subconscious at work, it's not like I was trying to think of an ironically appropriate song for the moment.
Perhaps my favorite example of this was a ways back with my ex girlfriend. We were together around the hour of midnight, doing... the things a couple tends to do together in the evening hours. And all of a sudden I hear "In the midnight hour, she cried more more more". That's right, I get Billy Idol playing in my head at that moment. And when I realize what's happened I just start laughing. In the middle of THAT activity.
So I have to stop and explain what's happened in my head, because laughter there is too easy to misinterpret. She sort of gave me a stern look and said that it was a good thing she liked Billy Idol.
So flash forward to now. Christmas is fast approaching and I can't stop thinking about the fact that last year I was spending it with a certain fox that I'd rather be spending it with again this year, but can't. I get the feeling I won't be able to spend new years with him either, and I hate that. This would be the first year in three years I haven't been able to do that.
So what keeps playing in my head? "All I want for Christmas is you". Mariah freaking Carey. To quote Homer Simpson, shut up brain or I'll stab you with a q-tip!
It's bad enough that it gives me sad 80s love songs (like Foreigner, "I Want to Know What Love Is") when I'm feeling lonely. Yeah, for some reason my subconscious likes to make me feel worse when I'm already feeling down. But at least there it has taste. But Mariah Carey? That's going too far, brain.
But the thing is, my subconscious sometimes communicates to me through music. More to the point it teases me through music. The best way I can explain with an example. Ages ago I knew someone who had some kind of problem where she had a hole in her heart. One day she was explaining it, and all of a sudden the Extreme song Hole Hearted started playing in my head. And the thing is it takes me a moment to realize what's happened. This is definitely my subconscious at work, it's not like I was trying to think of an ironically appropriate song for the moment.
Perhaps my favorite example of this was a ways back with my ex girlfriend. We were together around the hour of midnight, doing... the things a couple tends to do together in the evening hours. And all of a sudden I hear "In the midnight hour, she cried more more more". That's right, I get Billy Idol playing in my head at that moment. And when I realize what's happened I just start laughing. In the middle of THAT activity.
So I have to stop and explain what's happened in my head, because laughter there is too easy to misinterpret. She sort of gave me a stern look and said that it was a good thing she liked Billy Idol.
So flash forward to now. Christmas is fast approaching and I can't stop thinking about the fact that last year I was spending it with a certain fox that I'd rather be spending it with again this year, but can't. I get the feeling I won't be able to spend new years with him either, and I hate that. This would be the first year in three years I haven't been able to do that.
So what keeps playing in my head? "All I want for Christmas is you". Mariah freaking Carey. To quote Homer Simpson, shut up brain or I'll stab you with a q-tip!
It's bad enough that it gives me sad 80s love songs (like Foreigner, "I Want to Know What Love Is") when I'm feeling lonely. Yeah, for some reason my subconscious likes to make me feel worse when I'm already feeling down. But at least there it has taste. But Mariah Carey? That's going too far, brain.
Well, that and the music being played by the DJs kind of jammed whatever my mind might have wanted to summon up. That's the only way to shut it up sometimes, play other songs.
Also... man are you going to get it at bowling this weekend.
I highly doubt that-- the only song that plays in my head, 24-hours a day, is the Joe Esposito song, "You're the Best" from the 1984 The Karate Kid original motion picture soundtrack! Not only am I going to mop the floor with you in bowling using the awesome powers of my Cobra Kai, but I am also going to win the heart of 1984 Elisabeth Shue in the process! How about dem apples, Daniel-san? Bwuhahahahaha! Sweep the leg! Bwuhahahahaha!