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Not Feeling Christmas-y myself...[Warning: Rant Ahead]
12 years ago
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I am more noble than you? And you are more noble than me?
I don't know what's going on with me. Usually the holidays (Christmas, Thanksgiving, Halloween, etc.) is when my inspiration and motivation to write peaks at its highest, but I've just been in a slump.
I'm not sending out Christmas cards this year. I apologize to friends and loved ones that I do send them and I feel like a jerk now to those who did send me cards. I'm still discouraged by last year; I sent out Christmas cards and someone had been mailbox diving and tore up the cards I sent hoping to find money in them (so to anyone that didn't get a Christmas card from me last year, that's why).
And my job...I went from "I hate my job" to "it's not even worth it anymore". Not so much because of the pay, but of 3 co-workers who are to get me for some reason. As far as I know, I haven't done anything to offend them (and if I did do something wrong to them, they wouldn't hide it; they'd say it to my face). They treat me like I'm an underage employee with special needs and talk down to me about every little thing. One of my duties at my job is to set drinks for the elderly residents and they drink the same thing everyday. One of those co-workers got pissed off that I accidentally gave unsweet tea to those who drink sweet and vice-verse and added injury to insult my reminding me NUMEROUS time behind my back of how I should know this because of the many years I've been there. She flipped out over tea, over fucking tea. And she won't let me touch the drinks at supper shift as if I put poison in the drinks or if I mix them up again, the fucking apocalypse will start.
"Why don't I leave?" I bet some of you are asking. I've put in applications to many places and I guess since I'm a lowly kitchen worker, I'm not worth it to anyone. My only hope is that my volunteer job as a game review write turns into a paying job. Until then, I have to rely on this job until I either win the lottery or save enough to my car and moving money. I'm still living with my parents and not paying any bills, so me just up and leaving wouldn't be a problem; I'd be living comfortable but I'd hate not having my own low-pay income.
I shouldn't complain too much though because I got friends that lift me up and get me drunk on laughter. And they've been spoiling me on Steam; seems like I turn my head and someone sent me a gift that I had on my wishlist. Thanks to you guys for the Steam gifts. I'll make it up to you when I can.
Sorry for sounding bitchy and ungrateful, especially during the happiest time of the year. It's not an excuse but this week has been long for me.
But anyway I'm done. If you got this far, I'm sorry if I brought your mood down.
Hope that everyone has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
I'm not sending out Christmas cards this year. I apologize to friends and loved ones that I do send them and I feel like a jerk now to those who did send me cards. I'm still discouraged by last year; I sent out Christmas cards and someone had been mailbox diving and tore up the cards I sent hoping to find money in them (so to anyone that didn't get a Christmas card from me last year, that's why).
And my job...I went from "I hate my job" to "it's not even worth it anymore". Not so much because of the pay, but of 3 co-workers who are to get me for some reason. As far as I know, I haven't done anything to offend them (and if I did do something wrong to them, they wouldn't hide it; they'd say it to my face). They treat me like I'm an underage employee with special needs and talk down to me about every little thing. One of my duties at my job is to set drinks for the elderly residents and they drink the same thing everyday. One of those co-workers got pissed off that I accidentally gave unsweet tea to those who drink sweet and vice-verse and added injury to insult my reminding me NUMEROUS time behind my back of how I should know this because of the many years I've been there. She flipped out over tea, over fucking tea. And she won't let me touch the drinks at supper shift as if I put poison in the drinks or if I mix them up again, the fucking apocalypse will start.
"Why don't I leave?" I bet some of you are asking. I've put in applications to many places and I guess since I'm a lowly kitchen worker, I'm not worth it to anyone. My only hope is that my volunteer job as a game review write turns into a paying job. Until then, I have to rely on this job until I either win the lottery or save enough to my car and moving money. I'm still living with my parents and not paying any bills, so me just up and leaving wouldn't be a problem; I'd be living comfortable but I'd hate not having my own low-pay income.
I shouldn't complain too much though because I got friends that lift me up and get me drunk on laughter. And they've been spoiling me on Steam; seems like I turn my head and someone sent me a gift that I had on my wishlist. Thanks to you guys for the Steam gifts. I'll make it up to you when I can.
Sorry for sounding bitchy and ungrateful, especially during the happiest time of the year. It's not an excuse but this week has been long for me.
But anyway I'm done. If you got this far, I'm sorry if I brought your mood down.
Hope that everyone has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
And I did report her (and found out I'm not the only one she and the other 2 are harrassing; I think they're days are numbered.) and the many years I've been working there really doesn't matter. I could be working there for 20 years (God forbid...) without being promoted and I'd be treated no better than I am now. The bosses are just waiting for this to stop or continue and get worse before they do anything about it.