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12 years ago
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My mom is going to buy me a new laptop this week. This is like a gift from the heavens. So much is going to change from this! I'll be able to stream now without my laptop exploding. I can run multiple programs at once. I can save bigger files, meaning higher quality paintings. I don't have to wait minutes at a time to load a program. My work life is going to become so much easier from this.
To provide context, my current laptop is a 2007 MacBook Pro. It's grimy, scratched, warped in some places. I have a green streak of pixels running vertically through the middle of my laptop. The metal has corroded in two spots where I place my wrists. My battery lasts less than 5 minutes. It holds 120 GB, which is not much anymore. Just enough to run my programs, hold my music, and a few light Steam games. I have to clean out my files once every month to make sure it doesn't fill up. I have to usually close everything down and leave only one program open at a time. It's extortion.
I'm very excited to work. I've been taking Lorezepam to curb my anxiety attacks. I can focus now, no longer mulling 20 thoughts into my head at once. For the first time in a while, I feel like my old self is returning. I have a huge mountain of work though. It's going to take time. I'm not going to give up. I'm going to beat this, even if it takes a long time. I'm done regretting.
I'm going to try streaming again when I get my laptop. I'm thinking of using join.me for painting stuff, and Livestream for animation work, with Skype as a floor to chat with people off or in stream efficiently. I have a lot of ideas of how to manage my social online life and work life concurrently. Schedules are falling in to place, my sleep cycles are normalizing. I found out how to function with my depression.
As far as commissions go, I have a big pile of them I'm going over right now. Progress is slow, but it's being made. If I forgot about you, note me, and I'll get back to you as soon as possible. If you want one, I can arrange something, but I need to get my work done. I can't commit any promises just yet.
This is just the beginning. I'm excited to be back.
To provide context, my current laptop is a 2007 MacBook Pro. It's grimy, scratched, warped in some places. I have a green streak of pixels running vertically through the middle of my laptop. The metal has corroded in two spots where I place my wrists. My battery lasts less than 5 minutes. It holds 120 GB, which is not much anymore. Just enough to run my programs, hold my music, and a few light Steam games. I have to clean out my files once every month to make sure it doesn't fill up. I have to usually close everything down and leave only one program open at a time. It's extortion.
I'm very excited to work. I've been taking Lorezepam to curb my anxiety attacks. I can focus now, no longer mulling 20 thoughts into my head at once. For the first time in a while, I feel like my old self is returning. I have a huge mountain of work though. It's going to take time. I'm not going to give up. I'm going to beat this, even if it takes a long time. I'm done regretting.
I'm going to try streaming again when I get my laptop. I'm thinking of using join.me for painting stuff, and Livestream for animation work, with Skype as a floor to chat with people off or in stream efficiently. I have a lot of ideas of how to manage my social online life and work life concurrently. Schedules are falling in to place, my sleep cycles are normalizing. I found out how to function with my depression.
As far as commissions go, I have a big pile of them I'm going over right now. Progress is slow, but it's being made. If I forgot about you, note me, and I'll get back to you as soon as possible. If you want one, I can arrange something, but I need to get my work done. I can't commit any promises just yet.
This is just the beginning. I'm excited to be back.
caasi
~caasi
well its nice to see you are back dude!
