Christmas has only an hour left and I'm feeling pretty bummed right now. I'm not sure why. I'm hoping that writing all of this down will help me sort my head out.

Maybe it's because my only other gift I received from family (besides my mom) was from my cousin andher "family"... which yet again is anothergift that I would never use. It's almost like they know nothing about me. I know I should be grateful, and I really am I swear, but the same cousin also gave my brother a gift card to chick-fil-a. Which those of you from the states mightknow that this fast food chain is anti gay and they give money to organizations that actively try to keep gay people like myself from having equal rights. I know it's not really a big deal, but it just irked me a bit..

Maybe it's because of my brother's super young girlfriend who never seems to ever stop talking... maybe I'm feeling pretty lonely myself since I haven't had a meaningful relationship in about two years, and I'm all about romance and having someone to love...

Maybe it's because I've had one drink of whisky and coke and it is helping me find justification to write this all out, misspellings and poor grammar.

Anyway I'm sorry for being a debbie downer, I have made some super awesome friends here on this site and who have even included me in their art work which is stellar! I think I just needed to vent a bit. I know that there might be other things that is causing my poor mood, but I'll spare everyone/anyone bored enough to read this...

I'm about to shower and hang out with some buds while I'm still in my home town and hopefully I'll get in a better mood. Have a great rest of the week loves!