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New Year Resolution for 2014
11 years ago
New Year's Resolution...
1. Find a job and stick with it no matter what. I'm tired of being in a tough bind when it comes to money. Barely saving because of bills and IOUs. So, with me getting a job. We can save and have money left over to do all of that. Hopefully, will be up in the $200-$500 like we did before.
2. Losing weight. Lately, I've been taking care of other ppl needs. I always put others first before me. I always done so much for my family. I never have no favors returned when I ask for help or for a favor. Except dad though. He always done so much for me. Like fixing my car, making sure that I always check my car for water, oil, etc. He always taught me how to do things when it comes to cooking and giving me advice on cooking. Others usually don't want to or just don't have time to do any favors for me. Which has been bringing me down alot. Which cost me to gain more weight in areas that make me look unattractive. I know my husband loves me no matter what. But I wanted to do things for myself for once. I wanted to focus on me so I can get back to the weight I once was. I will lost this weight. I will get back to the 100 pound mark. I want to love myself again.
3. Stop being a damn realist. I've been so negative about everything. Whenever I feel that things are going well. Things goes bad. Even if I don't mentioned it, things always turned bad no matter what. How I been saving but end up spending because of bills and IOUs. I was optimistic once. But ever since that day when I lost my motivation for spriting because someone I admired hate my series by killing two of my main characters in his show. Even though I let that go a long time ago, I feel so bitter and angry that I blame myself for losing my way. And that I have to start over and get back to entertaining ppl. Slowly I've tried but I never truely grasp it. Even when I remake the old series, to me its the past I was holding on too. So, I let it go and decided to make my own stories with the girls and not using Sonic characters as a leverage to make a great story. Even though I'm doing better I still feel bitter and unwanting. I started to be a realist so I won't feel hurt or disappointed. I was tired of getting my hopes up and than later see it washed down the drain. It upsets me and I feel that I should be alone because I'm stupid, unworthy, ugly, and insignificant. I feel everything that I've done was all for nothing. That any hope that I believe in was false. I never had hope for anything because I'm afraid to get hurt and that I would sooner or later kill myself. But seeing that I gain so much weight, I was slowly killing myself. My self esteem and my confidence. So, as soon 2014 hits. I won't be a realist anymore because it will never get me anywhere. People have hope for a reason. To be cheerful and happy to appreciate the little things in life. To enjoy what life you had and not worry about the bad things that happen to you. After seeing a few movies like Mary Poppins, and seeing Bert and Mr. Banks together, ' A Man Has Dreams'. Even though I don't have what other people have, at least I have a loving husband, a car to take me where I need to go, a house to stay in til I get my own, food, and internet. I should be happy no matter what. Even if the situation is bad, I shouldn't pout about it. My problem is the same as everyone else. So, no more. I will be the new me that I wanted to be.
That's pretty much it. The three main resolution that I'm going to do next year. No more, same old same old. No more problems for me to worry. Going to be bold, optimistic, happy, cheerful, and open to people. It will be hard but I will not stop til I reach my goal. I will someday be the Sibyl I was back than. I'm going to walk the path I haven't walked in a good long time. Time to take a direction and just follow it. Well, hope you all have a safe and happy holiday. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
1. Find a job and stick with it no matter what. I'm tired of being in a tough bind when it comes to money. Barely saving because of bills and IOUs. So, with me getting a job. We can save and have money left over to do all of that. Hopefully, will be up in the $200-$500 like we did before.
2. Losing weight. Lately, I've been taking care of other ppl needs. I always put others first before me. I always done so much for my family. I never have no favors returned when I ask for help or for a favor. Except dad though. He always done so much for me. Like fixing my car, making sure that I always check my car for water, oil, etc. He always taught me how to do things when it comes to cooking and giving me advice on cooking. Others usually don't want to or just don't have time to do any favors for me. Which has been bringing me down alot. Which cost me to gain more weight in areas that make me look unattractive. I know my husband loves me no matter what. But I wanted to do things for myself for once. I wanted to focus on me so I can get back to the weight I once was. I will lost this weight. I will get back to the 100 pound mark. I want to love myself again.
3. Stop being a damn realist. I've been so negative about everything. Whenever I feel that things are going well. Things goes bad. Even if I don't mentioned it, things always turned bad no matter what. How I been saving but end up spending because of bills and IOUs. I was optimistic once. But ever since that day when I lost my motivation for spriting because someone I admired hate my series by killing two of my main characters in his show. Even though I let that go a long time ago, I feel so bitter and angry that I blame myself for losing my way. And that I have to start over and get back to entertaining ppl. Slowly I've tried but I never truely grasp it. Even when I remake the old series, to me its the past I was holding on too. So, I let it go and decided to make my own stories with the girls and not using Sonic characters as a leverage to make a great story. Even though I'm doing better I still feel bitter and unwanting. I started to be a realist so I won't feel hurt or disappointed. I was tired of getting my hopes up and than later see it washed down the drain. It upsets me and I feel that I should be alone because I'm stupid, unworthy, ugly, and insignificant. I feel everything that I've done was all for nothing. That any hope that I believe in was false. I never had hope for anything because I'm afraid to get hurt and that I would sooner or later kill myself. But seeing that I gain so much weight, I was slowly killing myself. My self esteem and my confidence. So, as soon 2014 hits. I won't be a realist anymore because it will never get me anywhere. People have hope for a reason. To be cheerful and happy to appreciate the little things in life. To enjoy what life you had and not worry about the bad things that happen to you. After seeing a few movies like Mary Poppins, and seeing Bert and Mr. Banks together, ' A Man Has Dreams'. Even though I don't have what other people have, at least I have a loving husband, a car to take me where I need to go, a house to stay in til I get my own, food, and internet. I should be happy no matter what. Even if the situation is bad, I shouldn't pout about it. My problem is the same as everyone else. So, no more. I will be the new me that I wanted to be.
That's pretty much it. The three main resolution that I'm going to do next year. No more, same old same old. No more problems for me to worry. Going to be bold, optimistic, happy, cheerful, and open to people. It will be hard but I will not stop til I reach my goal. I will someday be the Sibyl I was back than. I'm going to walk the path I haven't walked in a good long time. Time to take a direction and just follow it. Well, hope you all have a safe and happy holiday. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
delano31326
~delano31326
I feel the same way about my life and I need to be back be optimistic myself. A new year is coming and it's time to feel new a improve. Thanks Sibyl and good luck on your journey.
