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Explanation for earlier
12 years ago
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Sorry to everyone I confused or worried with my earlier journal. I suppose I better clarify.
Dad has this habit of asking questions I either have no answer for, or would rather not answer. In this case, he was asking whether I've ever had big goals or dreams for the future. I honestly never have. I've always done things that either I've been forced into, or enjoyed. When I graduated from high school, I knew I wanted to do university for computers. More for fun than for any job though. Dad suggested I also go into teaching, as it's a good "fallback if the computer garbage doesn't work for you". Not having any better idea, I did. I've since worked myself into a corner, making myself nearly unemployable with my choices. I will have a teaching degree, but only have experience working in computer labs. I have virtually NO experience or training in a classical classroom.
Really the only goals or dreams I have are either very short term, or useless for directing a career. (wanting to finally meet in person with close friends is a good goal, but not one to base a lifetime on)
It hurts, having to admit to family that I have no clue what I want to do, or where I want to go. Even material-ways I have no huge desires. A nicer computer would be pleasant, but I don't really lust over one. I guess I'm just going through a bit of an existential crisis.
I'll be fine; I think there's a job opening in the next town over for a teacher's assistant. It's not something i see myself doing long-term, but it's better than schlepping boxes of fruit at the grocery store.
Dad has this habit of asking questions I either have no answer for, or would rather not answer. In this case, he was asking whether I've ever had big goals or dreams for the future. I honestly never have. I've always done things that either I've been forced into, or enjoyed. When I graduated from high school, I knew I wanted to do university for computers. More for fun than for any job though. Dad suggested I also go into teaching, as it's a good "fallback if the computer garbage doesn't work for you". Not having any better idea, I did. I've since worked myself into a corner, making myself nearly unemployable with my choices. I will have a teaching degree, but only have experience working in computer labs. I have virtually NO experience or training in a classical classroom.
Really the only goals or dreams I have are either very short term, or useless for directing a career. (wanting to finally meet in person with close friends is a good goal, but not one to base a lifetime on)
It hurts, having to admit to family that I have no clue what I want to do, or where I want to go. Even material-ways I have no huge desires. A nicer computer would be pleasant, but I don't really lust over one. I guess I'm just going through a bit of an existential crisis.
I'll be fine; I think there's a job opening in the next town over for a teacher's assistant. It's not something i see myself doing long-term, but it's better than schlepping boxes of fruit at the grocery store.
