Guess it has dawned on me. I'm nothing more then an entertainer to people. A Joker. A class clown. A Party Animal. Many girls whom I attempted to date wouldn't take any consideration to not cheating on me thinking I won't care or I'll be too high or drunk to notice or do anything. No one ever fell in love with me let alone for whom I am. I was just there for fun to them. Fun, entertainment and attention. People threaten me because they think I'm a reckless and careless animal devoid of any real care or emotions. Most are too used to the jokes and antics that in my moments of darkness no one can handle me nor wants to deal with me. You would want me nearby, but you never want me close. No one wants a clown. I grow tired of wearing the painted on smile...