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I hate it here so much.
12 years ago
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And now, a journal.Warning: Intense levels of crazy may be present. Prepare yourself for potential scarring.
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother. My parents think I'm a worthless failure and only ever care about what I have to say if it's what they want to hear. They're always ranting behind my back about how horrible I am and how my brother is so much better than me when they think I can't hear (because they're constantly ignoring the fact that I can hear almost everything that goes on in this house, especially since they don't even bother to hide it.) They try to act like they care to my face, but as soon as I start voicing my own opinion about anything (or even remotely start acting like anything other than a robot designed to follow their every whim) they tell me my thoughts don't matter, and that I need to "calm my attitude" and "start acting respectively."
I don't know. I sound like I'm whining and I'm sorry. There's just so many times where I want to leave and go anywhere but here, but I have no money and nowhere to go. There have been actual times where I've contemplated just packing a bag with some necessities and just walking off with no destination, just to see where I end up. I know, It's stupid and dangerous, but at times I just didn't care. I just needed someplace to go other than here, where I'm constantly being told that me and my thoughts and opinions are worthless. Where I feel like I'm being trained to be this mindless robot, and if I act like anything else, suddenly I'm not good enough.
I constantly have to listen to my mom tell me how much of a failure I am
Sorry 'bout that, bud. :/
I'm pretty much used to it by now, but it still gets to me sometimes.
But hey, you're not worthless. You've been a great friend.
No but all bad jokes aside, I'm sorry. :( That's gotta be a monkey butt to the face.
It is, it really is. :/
And besides, I wouldn't have anywhere to go.
-Sings really loud.- TAKE ME AWAAAAAAY!!!
Love that song.
You should watch this video, though. It's hilarious.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaz_QZ6zwcQ&list=FLeeUnVGstauWF9lAEETTs8w&index=1
But at the same time you know you can't live without them.
Like, "I'm so done with computers, they're so confusing! ....Is that a funny cat video?"