Hello everyone I just wanted to take the time while everything is still fresh in my mine to let you all know how my night was. My started out just like every other day got up and went to work. towards the end of the day I was leaving at 5 I had a unique faint feeling as I turned I say my ex *nods* but that was ok. *smiles* after I left work I drove home to relax. I Love how the month of my birthday is turning out! I made a new friend that just moved to the Carolinas and he seem to be very cool. *smiles* around the end of our conversation it was 9:30. I had this weird urge to get out of the house which is very weird for me. I chose to go out to a club. I had a great time I had a few friends meet me the music was great and I love to dance so the party was on *smiles* I had a few strangers come up and start dancing on me and with me it was Awesome. to me the music was talking to me giving me signs playing a few of my favorites back to back I'm single again by Trina, I Can't Wait To Wee You again by Miley Cyrus, Just fine by Mary J Blige,and Womanizer by Briney Spears or I would like to say Furrynizer by SaberClaw *smiles* telling me to just be myself and let the past go. as I stood there in the middle of the dance floor with the flashing lights and lasers going I touched my amethyst stone necklace and I felt myself transforming into something that I was once along time ago. I slowly turned into someone that just wanted to have fun and just wanted to leave the past behind and start a new beginning maybe with a few old thing and or old persons. I felt great within myself saying that my past love,hopes,and feelings were levels of growing and now its time to just have fun from that point forward. *nods* I dance the night away with just a few pauses to take a few drinks of margaritas and screwdrivers. yay . Around 2:15 it was time for me to go because I still had work in the morning *smiles* and so I left the club but the fun doesn't stop there *nods* as I was walking back to my car a few guys tried to talk to me asking me for my name and numbers just flirting at me and of course i was flirting back at them it was fun. Its a nice feeling knowing that u are cute and that others find you attractive. after a few trades of numbers and smiles i drove off to come home and rest and now I am here writing this journal. I can still feel the transformation happening. I hope this is a great thing for me. *smiles big* I an not sure what I may become anymore it as been so long.