....i cant do it any more... I've fallen into such a deep dispare I cant even....draw a straight line... I have no isnperation and life only seems like a never ending ammount of torture.. Ive caught my self writing som really dark messed up good bye and applogie letters.... I've never been in thistate of mind.....i dont know what to do...but.. Good bye for now.... I cant do it...losing everything....being abandoned...im afraid I cant recover...i need help....