I'm home. Wooooah.

So, the past week was a mixture of stress, sleep deprivation and then excitement and joy.

I dreaded so many things I had to do over the past two days. The travelling, the people, meeting people I have often looked up to and then of course singing in the most famous studio ever and meeting so many professional people. I feared singing to an audience of any kind. I can't easily sing to people close to me, so I was positive I would mess up badly when it came to the crunch.

However, I managed it... it was hard. I shook, I paced... but I have to say, as soon as I got into Studio 1... wow. That studio hall is amazing. The acoustics are incredible. It makes every voice in there sound heavenly. I instantly wanted so badly to sing in that hall, and I did. At first I sang with this wobbliness to my voice. I walked around singing, trying to block everything out. Fox was playing the piano in one of the rooms that joins onto the hall, so I figured I would just take the chance to warm up and get over my nerves. I slowly began to relax, but was still very stressed.

I was eventually singing away and could tell people were listening, so I kept making myself continue. After a little while I felt a presence behind me and turned around mid song to find  dreamsong stood behind me, staring back at me. She asked if I was Lily and we hugged eachother. Finally I got to meet someone I have connected with a little over email and through working with. She is a wonderful person and it was an absolute pleasure to have her company. I was very nervous, so I hope she doesn't mind how quiet I was sometimes, but I was just shy and I am not a big talker a lot of the time. I am much more a listener.

I feel like I have a friend in her, and hopefully we can speak more and more. I'm so glad we met. I really do admire her so much! :) Without her help and reassurance, I'd not have managed to face all of the fears I had. She held my hand through all of it, and I am so grateful. She kept patiently telling me I was doing great and that I had to just relax. She was like this mom encouraging me, it was so sweet.

Meeting Fox was great too. He didn't have much time to talk which was fine, but when I did get to speak with him it was easy because he is so calm and friendly. For my last song takes, he asked if we could record the piano and vocals together as he had been doing this with other songs, and I agreed. When he started playing around while we waited for the engineers to set things up I started to sing along when he played "Somewhere Only We Know". I don't know if it was just me, but we were so in harmony with eachother. It felt like something clicked for me, and the piano accompaniment really gave me confidence. I love the piano. It's a beautiful instrument... it's definitely my favourite instrument of all. Having him play and easing myself around that was magical. He even suggested we do some stuff as extras on the album, but there was a lot to do so I really didn't expect us to have time for that as much as I could have done it all day! Seriously Fox, it was a pleasure to sing with you and just .. ack! It was so -right- for me.

Unfortunately the first two songs were done while my nerves were trolling me... so I feel if I'd done them again I'd have done far better. The last song, Immortality, was so much better/easier for me. I hope the other songs don't sound terrible >.<;;

Everyone I met was amazingly supportive and encouraging. Honestly, I am so sorry to everyone that I was so nervous and quiet. I honestly wasn't looking for compliments but I am so grateful that I was reassured. I couldn't have done it without all of the support I got. I met some sweet, kindhearted people that it was an honour to get to talk to. Thank you all for your kindness.

So... I was interviewed and photographed for the documentary/media part of the album... so maybe you will all get to see me in person at some point. I was pretty nervous about those parts too but I wanted to pitch in for all involved and make this special with the other musicians. Besides... life is far too short to be restricted by fears. I realised that I have to keep fighting them so that I can enjoy my life more.

I can't wait for the album to be finished. I really can't wait! :D I hope you all get to hear previews soon. The orchestra was FANTASTIC. Hearing everyone creating their parts was also fantastic. It taught me a lot about how studio recording works, and also let me feel a bit more relaxed about things because I was putting too much pressure on myself.

Eee! So exciting! Maybe you guys will start seeing/hearing me at cons performing live with Fox and other people :3!