Im thinking about making a comeback after taking a long year to get some priorities straight. ive got alot of dst piled up on my talent left behind but id hope that id have the support and interest i used to have when i was sharing my art with you all.

This means for the time being i am not comfortable accepting commissions or trades/requests as i have not even half assed drawn this whole time. im afraid of my Tablet and have to slowly rebuild my real media stockpile since i have either thrown away, lost or given away my supplies.

its gonna be a long hard road obtaining the items id need to really begin to re apply myself full time to art again but theres always been hope that id begin again with this adventure within the community, the biggest clue to that was ive NEVER lost or thrown out ANY of my previous art and digital submissions. they've never been hidden in a closet...in fact, they have always been somewhere in the house stacked in plain view in a corner, on a desk, or on a table.

Much like the bottle staring at the recovering alcoholic, my art has always been a constant reminder that there was a talent i had never really lost, but there was a point where i had let it consume me a bit more than i should have, and its gotten me a few bad reviews, and cost me a couple followers. For that i can do nothing more than just learn from it and prevent it from being more than a hobby.

Once it became a source of income for me is when things got strained. i loved the interests, the fact that what i did for my own selfless enjoyment and entertainment for the ones who saw a great potential and admiration my hard work. But as it became a "Job" i lost that glow and fulfillment it once had given me. I felt like the line cook at a fast food restaurant during a lunch rush with an understaffed crew. The demand for what i had promised became more of a hostility, i was failing at my job and was poor at providing a great experience. i felt like i had let alot of you down and for that i dont ever think i could repeat the opportunity.

I found myself drawing personal art when there was paid commissions waiting...but when i would set attention to the owed art, it became such a chore because deep down inside it wasint what i signed up for....All of you found your ways to my page because you liked what you have seen, not because i had a for sale sign on my talent. most of you had shared an appreciation for my personality, and that unlike alot of others, i actually made strenuous attempts at communicating with EVERY watcher on my account. the social networking, and friendships made is what kept me going and i wanted nothing more than that.

I had really lost what it all meant to me. but life hasint been all that easy outside of art. having a second child, moving to indiana, moving back to az for half a year, serious medical complications that lead to a coma and extended hospitalizations, moving back to indiana.....it was a very difficult time for myself and family. but i cant help but feel that my art is what had held my head up for the last 7 years and i am ready to open that door again.

I just wanted to share this with you all and hope that 2014 will be the year things begin again for me and sharing my talents.

I do still have a facebook, and tend to frequent that most, so if you would like to, im always looking for more people to talk with and share stuff with. feel free to send me a request.