OMG why when ever I commit to something everything decides to go wrong

I new to digital art so that's expected but like the day before I tried to find my poetry folder and boom not there it's no we're to be found I have been freaking out about it for like since January 31 I need to find that folder cause that holds all the poems I've ever done eve ones that I have lost in fire, water damage, etc. so lots of those poems I'll never get back ever again D:

This is very upsetting I had poems I've wrote since I was in 6th grade when I first got introduced into poetry ;-; I feel amazingly wakeful I need to find it I've been searching desperately for it since February started

This majorly sucks cause I'm wasting my art free time to look for it ;.; I need to find it as soon and as much as possible -.-