I don't want to be angry, but I am.
I don't know when I'm going to stop being angry.
Even as my life is evening itself back out
Even now that I have all the things that have been absent these past years
Now that hindsight has been granted me
I can see just how much was wrong before
I never spoke up
I still haven't...
Everyone loves you, no one else can see the darkness that I have seen
And so my secret stays...
I am stronger now because of this
And I am happier now than I've been in many years
But I'm still angry...
At you for treating me the way you did
as well as myself for allowing it to continue.
I know I need to let go of this, this last hurdle to freeing myself of the past
But fresh wounds need time to heal.
And until the passage of time gives me distance from these memories...
I will continue to carry this anger.
I only hope that I can let go sooner rather than later.

I don't know why I'm ranting here except that this is the only place I can say these things without the wrong people seeing them. I do apologise for the negativity as it's something I've largely gotten myself away from in recent years. But everyone needs a little vent from time to time, no? ;)

New arts shall be posted today and onward from time to time. I've got a lot of backlog to catch up on.

Namaste, friends. <3