Bad Doctors
11 years ago
Gods, I can't stand my doctor. I don't think I'll ever go back to her. She actually sat there and GOOGLED my medication to tell me what would happen with it if I were to get pregnant (I want off of it and she doesn't want me to be).
Don't google shit, I can do that at home! Kept asking me what I wanted her to do, I don't know! SHE's the one that's supposed to have gone to school for a degree and tell ME what her thoughts and opinions are on what's happening and what can be done about it! She said "I don't know" so many fucking times it was like listening to a broken record! That and telling me 8 times in a SINGLE appointment how strongly she wants me to go see a psych. I KNOW I should go see one, but they're expensive! And the one at the clinic is like going to a high school guidance counselor with self help remedies that make me want to put my fist through a wall! You don't tell someone who says they'd once carried two bottles of Vicodin around in their purse with serious thoughts of taking both bottles at the same time to go home and think positive thoughts! GAH!
And no, i"m not suicidal, that was a long time ago, I just deal with some heavy depression sometimes now.
My doctor seriously makes me want to scream. I've NEVER had a doctor that always tells me that she doesn't know and that she doesn't have any "quick fixes" before. I don't want a quick fix, I know there is no quick fix for my stomach and/or my anxiety. That's why I go to the doctor! Just so damn frustrated! And she always seems to make me feel like I'm a problem child :( I barely get to see her when I DO go in, I usually get shuffled off to some other doctor (which is always surprisingly positive and helpful with suggestions and concerns), so when I end up seeing her, I try to catch her up on what happened with the other doctors. She's been telling me for over a YEAR that there's no problem with this one thing, and then when I mentioned it again at another appointment, acted like I'd never mentioned it before and why hadn't I mentioned it to her cause it could be something serious! Like... SERIOUSLY?! What's WITH this woman?!
Okay, done with my rant. Just had a really bad appointment. Oi.
Don't google shit, I can do that at home! Kept asking me what I wanted her to do, I don't know! SHE's the one that's supposed to have gone to school for a degree and tell ME what her thoughts and opinions are on what's happening and what can be done about it! She said "I don't know" so many fucking times it was like listening to a broken record! That and telling me 8 times in a SINGLE appointment how strongly she wants me to go see a psych. I KNOW I should go see one, but they're expensive! And the one at the clinic is like going to a high school guidance counselor with self help remedies that make me want to put my fist through a wall! You don't tell someone who says they'd once carried two bottles of Vicodin around in their purse with serious thoughts of taking both bottles at the same time to go home and think positive thoughts! GAH!
And no, i"m not suicidal, that was a long time ago, I just deal with some heavy depression sometimes now.
My doctor seriously makes me want to scream. I've NEVER had a doctor that always tells me that she doesn't know and that she doesn't have any "quick fixes" before. I don't want a quick fix, I know there is no quick fix for my stomach and/or my anxiety. That's why I go to the doctor! Just so damn frustrated! And she always seems to make me feel like I'm a problem child :( I barely get to see her when I DO go in, I usually get shuffled off to some other doctor (which is always surprisingly positive and helpful with suggestions and concerns), so when I end up seeing her, I try to catch her up on what happened with the other doctors. She's been telling me for over a YEAR that there's no problem with this one thing, and then when I mentioned it again at another appointment, acted like I'd never mentioned it before and why hadn't I mentioned it to her cause it could be something serious! Like... SERIOUSLY?! What's WITH this woman?!
Okay, done with my rant. Just had a really bad appointment. Oi.
I know what you mean about the medication though, that's the part about my doctor that scares me the most as well. I do a little homework and know more than he does, and he's prescribing stuff? That's scary. And yes, I actually had my doctor pull up Wikipedia in the office to look up something I asked about. Also don't forget that doctors are heavily incentivized to get and keep people on prescriptions. I think the reality is a lot worse than most people think, because my experience (both personally and with family) is that you practically have to fight with the doctor to take someone off anything for just about any reason. Even the more... dangerous stuff. I don't know if it's because they don't have the motivation, interest, knowledge or just don't care.
I hope you can find someone you are able to work with, because I suspect that's half the battle right there is finding someone who cares enough to actually take the time to do their job.