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Apologies for my last journal
11 years ago
It was based on suspicions made to them based on how 
Darkgl is friends with Sparky and how my past ( on Stompychu ) regarded Sparky in general to have talked about me with his friends when he was younger.
Bunearyk was meant to be a member I distrusted because the offense I never meant to incorporate years ago and I dislike gossip in general ( as I'm a person who holds the privacy and confidentality of others in very high standards ), it was also mostly a past thing. But then, understand despite my fury of trying to keep things personal. Otherwise, it was a attempt to also let out steam about the past; thus I was wrong.
Sparky the chu is just a character I uphold not to be assertive enough and thus, has left me paranoid if it's ok to make friends when I have people talking about me constantly and wondering who still trusts me.
I am sorry for my words. I would like to say they no longer have meaning.
On the other matter. I extremely hate gossip as I see it as immoral, selfish, mean, narcissistic and threatens to break the trust between my friends which like those people do with their friends, I hold in very high regard, except this Sparky thing ranging from around 5 years ago, with unknowcool telling me he talked about him and friends randomly dissapeared during 2013, etc. The reason I don't trust many people now to be straightforward and honest with me.
Darkgl is friends with Sparky and how my past ( on Stompychu ) regarded Sparky in general to have talked about me with his friends when he was younger.Bunearyk was meant to be a member I distrusted because the offense I never meant to incorporate years ago and I dislike gossip in general ( as I'm a person who holds the privacy and confidentality of others in very high standards ), it was also mostly a past thing. But then, understand despite my fury of trying to keep things personal. Otherwise, it was a attempt to also let out steam about the past; thus I was wrong.
Sparky the chu is just a character I uphold not to be assertive enough and thus, has left me paranoid if it's ok to make friends when I have people talking about me constantly and wondering who still trusts me.
I am sorry for my words. I would like to say they no longer have meaning.
On the other matter. I extremely hate gossip as I see it as immoral, selfish, mean, narcissistic and threatens to break the trust between my friends which like those people do with their friends, I hold in very high regard, except this Sparky thing ranging from around 5 years ago, with unknowcool telling me he talked about him and friends randomly dissapeared during 2013, etc. The reason I don't trust many people now to be straightforward and honest with me.
Throughout all of 2013 I suffered extremely deeply, I was so traumatized and crying to myself how I lost all these new dear friends I had during that time. My only form of happiness after losing my chance back on this communitity.
I am sick of misunderstandings and gossip. I am very, very angry about my past. I now long to preserve the privacy of squabbles and secrets of my friends as they should. But when people are tiptoeing about and saying things I never did, misinterpretting and writing my own story.
... Words can't describe how upset and angry I was. What I've been through, whilst I was happy, just being off this website, before these people began talking about me all over; some of them I even knew. Words can't describe, how self conscientious I felt; still do to preserve the equality and peace of others.
I don't give a damn how insecure, shy or weak or sensitive you are. I hate you. I hate every last damn person and I will attack if I know my very friend's trust between them has been broken. Words once more, can't describe my grief.
I'm sorry things were so rough. I have to admit though. I do gossip sometimes... But, I don't give names.
I'm nothing special though. Just a person.
I dunno, I just didn't want anyone to hold too high expectations for me. I've hurt alot of people.
So have I. I hold low expectations for everything~ Nothing disappoints when you expectations are low, and then when something is good, you get so much more enjoyment out of it than everyone else does.