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11 years ago
Well, things have been beyond stressful for me, been getting barely any sleep and my anxiety is driving me up the wall not to mention my adhd makes it impossible to concentrate on nearly anything worth while. I think ive gotten distracted at least 4 times now looking at different things around the room while typing what little I have so far.
Me and my gf are trying to make it here at our place in hopes we dont lose our house. After losing my job, and her not having one, or unemployement, we kinda expected to have to leave here and if that happened we would mostly likely be homeless. I refuse to live with my mom, or my family in general for the most part, and even though I have a lot of friends, you can only couch hop for so long before somebody says something and gets pissed off that I dont have a job.
Now to talk seriously. To the people I said id pay back what they paid me for their suits and send back their stuff that they sent me. I think I either messaged you all, or posted a journal about it, possibly both, but I said I was going to pay you all back when I got my tax return. But in an effort to make sure I had a place to live at, and electricity to keep us warm in this winter, and to keep basic necessities stocked around the house for us to live on, along with making sure my other bills (and my gf's) were paid off for a couple months, to ensure we have plenty of time to look for a job without having to worry about losing our house, I used my entire tax return on bills. I had i think a little less than 20 dollars left after bills and I had to use it for gas in our car. So yah, we're broke now. again.. But basically, the point of this was to say that I wont be able to pay you all til I get a job and am able to afford both my bills and enough to set aside to pay you all back, aside from that it could be as long as next tax return time before I had a solid enough amount of money to be able to do something like that. I mean seriously, im like a broken record at this point, telling you guys time and time again that id do something and then it turns out to not happen or keeps getting pushed back. Ridiculous, i know, but nothing I can do about it at the moment, i mean we can't even hardly afford to feed ourselves. if it weren't for the state giving us food stamps we would have absolutely no food to eat. Honestly id rather make sure I can survive before I keep my word to people about paying them back, which I plan to do anyway, but its just been delayed even more.
I have been looking for a job though, going back out today I think, just waiting for my gf to wake up. I woke up like 2 hours ago after only about 4 and a half hours of sleep and couldn't fall back asleep, but she seems to sleep just fine. Kinda jealous about that really, i can't sleep for shit and she's sleeping just fine. Oh well, not gonna start bitching about that, at least one of us is sleeping well lol.
I got a letter in the mail from the Missouri Division of Employment Security yesterday to try and get my unemployement through walmart re-activated. I've been doing job apps and doing my weekly claims, but now they want me to drive all the way to springfield, which I can't at all afford, and go to the career center and talk to one of the people there. Problem is, other than not being able to afford it, they want the records of all the places ive applied at, when I applied at them, and how I contacted them, which would be fine if I actually wrote that all down. Without that, i wont get my unemployement, and can be fined/imprisoned for making "false claims" on my unemployment, considering im on probation anyway, it kinda worries me since the slightest thing could easily land me in jail and extend my probation to not only be longer, but also be supervised, which would totally fuck me over because then I can't take the medication I need for my tourette syndrome since it's not legal. Just an FYI here, I use marijuana medically for my tourettes, anxiety, daily headaches, and insomnia, without it I have very little way to function normally in society. And before I get a bunch of people saying "oh you're just a drug addict. anxiety, headaches, and insomnia, along with random body twitches are often signs of somebody coming off of something.", its not like that. I had every one of those problems before I even got out of school, before I ever tried anything. It wasn't until I started smoking weed that I realized I can actually function like a normal human being while on it and not have to be in pain and unable to be around much of any people.
So back on topic, ive gotta go upto springfield to talk to them, and before then, try to figure out what im gonna do about showing them when and where I applied at.
Well i'm gonna just go ahead and end this journal, been going on for quite some time and am getting very bored of typing.
Me and my gf are trying to make it here at our place in hopes we dont lose our house. After losing my job, and her not having one, or unemployement, we kinda expected to have to leave here and if that happened we would mostly likely be homeless. I refuse to live with my mom, or my family in general for the most part, and even though I have a lot of friends, you can only couch hop for so long before somebody says something and gets pissed off that I dont have a job.
Now to talk seriously. To the people I said id pay back what they paid me for their suits and send back their stuff that they sent me. I think I either messaged you all, or posted a journal about it, possibly both, but I said I was going to pay you all back when I got my tax return. But in an effort to make sure I had a place to live at, and electricity to keep us warm in this winter, and to keep basic necessities stocked around the house for us to live on, along with making sure my other bills (and my gf's) were paid off for a couple months, to ensure we have plenty of time to look for a job without having to worry about losing our house, I used my entire tax return on bills. I had i think a little less than 20 dollars left after bills and I had to use it for gas in our car. So yah, we're broke now. again.. But basically, the point of this was to say that I wont be able to pay you all til I get a job and am able to afford both my bills and enough to set aside to pay you all back, aside from that it could be as long as next tax return time before I had a solid enough amount of money to be able to do something like that. I mean seriously, im like a broken record at this point, telling you guys time and time again that id do something and then it turns out to not happen or keeps getting pushed back. Ridiculous, i know, but nothing I can do about it at the moment, i mean we can't even hardly afford to feed ourselves. if it weren't for the state giving us food stamps we would have absolutely no food to eat. Honestly id rather make sure I can survive before I keep my word to people about paying them back, which I plan to do anyway, but its just been delayed even more.
I have been looking for a job though, going back out today I think, just waiting for my gf to wake up. I woke up like 2 hours ago after only about 4 and a half hours of sleep and couldn't fall back asleep, but she seems to sleep just fine. Kinda jealous about that really, i can't sleep for shit and she's sleeping just fine. Oh well, not gonna start bitching about that, at least one of us is sleeping well lol.
I got a letter in the mail from the Missouri Division of Employment Security yesterday to try and get my unemployement through walmart re-activated. I've been doing job apps and doing my weekly claims, but now they want me to drive all the way to springfield, which I can't at all afford, and go to the career center and talk to one of the people there. Problem is, other than not being able to afford it, they want the records of all the places ive applied at, when I applied at them, and how I contacted them, which would be fine if I actually wrote that all down. Without that, i wont get my unemployement, and can be fined/imprisoned for making "false claims" on my unemployment, considering im on probation anyway, it kinda worries me since the slightest thing could easily land me in jail and extend my probation to not only be longer, but also be supervised, which would totally fuck me over because then I can't take the medication I need for my tourette syndrome since it's not legal. Just an FYI here, I use marijuana medically for my tourettes, anxiety, daily headaches, and insomnia, without it I have very little way to function normally in society. And before I get a bunch of people saying "oh you're just a drug addict. anxiety, headaches, and insomnia, along with random body twitches are often signs of somebody coming off of something.", its not like that. I had every one of those problems before I even got out of school, before I ever tried anything. It wasn't until I started smoking weed that I realized I can actually function like a normal human being while on it and not have to be in pain and unable to be around much of any people.
So back on topic, ive gotta go upto springfield to talk to them, and before then, try to figure out what im gonna do about showing them when and where I applied at.
Well i'm gonna just go ahead and end this journal, been going on for quite some time and am getting very bored of typing.
