I really do miss this place. but with my arm still fucked and now occasional hand tremors are is just fucking hard to do. not to mention all the mundane shit in my way of getting anything done like my art space being a pile of art supplies and odds and ends from when i was cleaning out storage areas of the house, winter kicking my ass like i knew it would since i am riddled with painful diseases like rheumatoid arthritis and Fibro and shit which already makes the nicest day difficult for me at best and winter and shitty cold weather a living fucking nightmare at times. so yeah not much gets done in winter like heavy cleaning or anything. and considering i still have shit on the porch from halloween cause COLD came in fast this year... i never got done all i wanted to before fall ended and winter started... one of my biggest wishes anymore is to just have a clean house (not magazine clean or something like that.) and my art area just organized enough for me to do art all winter long because when spring hits i have so much to do (for a broken person like myself. someone not in my condition could do this shit in a weekend i think) that i cannot concentrate on the house. though this year looks like it may be exceptionally busy since i will be going back to pennsic and hopefully the Shop. and AC and of course the WPAFW and locally maybe the farmers market with seedlings and some jewelry and maybe some nice terrariums. yeah it is going to be a bitch. but even with all that on my plate my big concern this year is fixing the house and getting ready for next winter. this one was beyond fucking rough. for the last year i have had my mobility scooter as my primary source of getting around. it does not work in snow. some months i had to beg for rides for a week or more to get out to get money to get groceries. i cannot do that. I have to make a hydroponics system. i have to do some other things to make sure i am not living on Shit food. my diabetes cannot handle that shit anymore. but yeah all this shit has kept me not as online as much as i used to be. especially in the places i want to be in. like here. where i can talk to other artists and furs and such and not have the drama levels of Facebook. cause HOLY FUCK facebook is like a god damn anime convention for drama. which honestly furries have NOTHING on an average anime con or red neck town for drama and i already live in a red neck town.