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Post-con letdown, am I losing it?
11 years ago
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*ahem* meeeeee... mehhhhh... mahhhhh... mawwwww... maWOOOOOOooooooo....
Heck of a time to finally update but I have to talk this out.
So let me backtrack a bit. TFF was awesome trip down memory lane for me as I got to revisit my old stomping grounds. It actually kind of overwhelmed the actual convention experience but hey, to each their own agendas.
FWA was just a good solid time all around. Yeah, there were a couple things I’d do differently; playing the MTG draft format and what turned out to be Omaha Hi-Lo Pot Limit Poker (complete with 20 minute Powerpoint presentation on how to play it) turned out to be suboptimal on both counts. But all in all it was a fine time. I don’t know if the elevators were as much an issue this year for everyone as we took the precaution of staying at the Doubletree across the street. The hotel staff there was a lot friendlier than the Westin was last year too.
But all good things come to an end, as the cliche goes, and here I am at home with just a little bit of gloom settling in even as the weather turns a lot more favorable.
Part of it is financial, but I don’t want to dwell on that, I’ve talked more than enough about it with those affected.
No, I’m actually starting to worry about my mental state. My mom’s father had Alzheimer’s and my mom now has what is so far a fairly mild but still noticeable form of dementia. And now I’m starting to feel like I’m beginning to lose it. Like I will completely forget that I packed something and be absolutely certain I left it behind only to discover when I open my luggage, there it is. I keep misplacing my phone and while I can always find it thanks to the wonder that is modern location technology, it’s always a bit embarrassing when I have to use it.
As you may remember a few months ago I got help for some severe sleep apnia that had become seriously dangerous, to the point where even the simple 15 minute drive home from work was a struggle to stay alert. I had thought that might just be the treatments losing their effectiveness, but now I don’t think that’s the case. I went home thinking I could just use a nap, but when I got home I found I wasn’t really sleepy at all. Just… a bit foggy. Maybe some of the day’s frustrations got my adrenaline going and staved off the sleepiness but it’s just one more thing to worry me. One more thing I don’t need. One more thing I may not be able to do anything about.
Even now I can’t shake the feeling that I was going to go somewhere else with this but now I can’t think of it. It’s all a little scary really.
So let me backtrack a bit. TFF was awesome trip down memory lane for me as I got to revisit my old stomping grounds. It actually kind of overwhelmed the actual convention experience but hey, to each their own agendas.
FWA was just a good solid time all around. Yeah, there were a couple things I’d do differently; playing the MTG draft format and what turned out to be Omaha Hi-Lo Pot Limit Poker (complete with 20 minute Powerpoint presentation on how to play it) turned out to be suboptimal on both counts. But all in all it was a fine time. I don’t know if the elevators were as much an issue this year for everyone as we took the precaution of staying at the Doubletree across the street. The hotel staff there was a lot friendlier than the Westin was last year too.
But all good things come to an end, as the cliche goes, and here I am at home with just a little bit of gloom settling in even as the weather turns a lot more favorable.
Part of it is financial, but I don’t want to dwell on that, I’ve talked more than enough about it with those affected.
No, I’m actually starting to worry about my mental state. My mom’s father had Alzheimer’s and my mom now has what is so far a fairly mild but still noticeable form of dementia. And now I’m starting to feel like I’m beginning to lose it. Like I will completely forget that I packed something and be absolutely certain I left it behind only to discover when I open my luggage, there it is. I keep misplacing my phone and while I can always find it thanks to the wonder that is modern location technology, it’s always a bit embarrassing when I have to use it.
As you may remember a few months ago I got help for some severe sleep apnia that had become seriously dangerous, to the point where even the simple 15 minute drive home from work was a struggle to stay alert. I had thought that might just be the treatments losing their effectiveness, but now I don’t think that’s the case. I went home thinking I could just use a nap, but when I got home I found I wasn’t really sleepy at all. Just… a bit foggy. Maybe some of the day’s frustrations got my adrenaline going and staved off the sleepiness but it’s just one more thing to worry me. One more thing I don’t need. One more thing I may not be able to do anything about.
Even now I can’t shake the feeling that I was going to go somewhere else with this but now I can’t think of it. It’s all a little scary really.
maskedllama
~maskedllama
*HUGS* have you tried going to a specialist? Mom had to go to one.
