I don't do these very often if i do its for a really important reason and this is such a time.

I'm changing quite a few things in my life as im "rebooting myself" as I simply cant go on the way I was anymore its too hurtful. Im also changing and partially retiring my Fox Fursiona as well as changing my RL name again. This has not been dew to any one reason but ill try and explain why iv had to do this . anyone who knows me will understand what a big deal this is to me Iv carried the name Fox in RL by depol since I was 20 years old and my fursiona has always been Fox Convoy a couple of years after that when I started going to meets to this day.

Iv had a very hard time of resent months I started a new job and was ready to start anew and was pleased to get away from the hell hole that was my last job with all its homophobia and horrid hours. But once I started problems started. My wages were never right and still to this day are always short or wrong that put a huge strain on me and reggie during Xmas time and beyond never knowing if I could pay my bills or rent let alone xmas or holls. Then there was as it now transpires a mistake from the Inland revenue to ask for 600 pound at a time my job again messed up my wages and if my bird had not gave half his wages id still be left with most of it to pay. The strain on my nerves at the time and the feeling that the ground was always ready to eat me up was unbearable at times . Along side this was a lot of furry drama and some close friends who I wish i could have done so much more for having such hard times it would make me brake down to not be able to support them. And to cap it all off there were the immature furs who most of the time iv been in this fandom iv been able to shrug off trying it on with both me and regdeh flirting and in some cases going farther with no resect for our relationship or in some cases just assuming we were like "every other gay furry couple" and were ok with strangers rping or "having fun" in RL as thats the norm right?? WRONG!!. After a while tho i started to get over one thing and another but as the rage subsided I started to think to myself did I feel like me anymore . I could see myself and how fast i was to spot things in furs and predict and be right so often it was depressing me. Then i looked at myself a bit deeper and saw I was no longer the fun loving happy friend making guy I used to be. A guy who wanted nothing else but to be surrounded by lovely furs who loved him and he would love them back and do anything for them. Id still love to be that guy sometimes but even i know thats not going to happen anymore .
People in this fandom and RL work has driven that from me and i was worryed id just be this husk of a fox not even happy looking at his fursiona anymore as it was like looking though a window to a happier time waving back at me. I had to do something and for a week or two it just seemed that leaving the fandom behind and concentrating on the few friends I had left was the only way forward . But I wanted to plow on but just not the way I was. I wanted to try a new angle or in the end a angle that had not been fully explored. You see Cyber Ice as some will know was created to be my domanate side as a help to allow myself to let go and handle my then pets and mate without me worrying i was being too well dominate. It worked but In my hart Iv never been happy being like that even then so I made him a secondary character and from time to time suited or would use him to make people scared like a boogy man that cyber Ice would come out and punish them. But now I looked at him in a new light . If I was going to carry on in this fandom I needed to fit a skin that reflected what I had become and at the same time I needed a form that I could draw upon the strength of to carry me though life and the fandom. So as he was made from my love of dragons the only other creature as close to my hart as foxes I chose a hard option. I know many will think im still that dom dragon or think that I should have chose a new fursoina completely but this feels right and I will be changing him a to suit all of my personality not just one aspect anymore but as iv said with the way iv changed and become more i so-pose hard edged and intolerant it makes a happy half way house .Now on a more important note, changing my real name feels right too. I realise I cant go though another job interview or make another doctors appointment with "Oh that's a odd name" or as i get a lot of "is this a joke you do understand this is a doctors right?" again with the way iv been beaten down im worried im going to fight back and I don't want that. SO its been a hard thing again to change but Ill be changing my name from Fox Andew Peachey to Andew Peachey . Im not sure if ill have a mid name I might have something dragon related in there but nothing too in your face.

Im sorry if this has been a long hard read for you all that made it this far in summery if you call me fox in RL its ok for now but id prefer Cyber Ice or just Cyber will be fine . Also no jokes at the name I ask you to be respectful as I would be to your fursonia name

Thank you everyone. I love my friends who still stand by me after this dearly.