this has been a really crappy weekend.

Lemme explain. My job, as much as I love it, is high intensity and fairly stressful. Lot of hard deadlines that require a lot of other people to do their part in a timely fashion in order for me to meet MY deadlines. As such, I often have to ride other people pretty hard to get info and other things I need to do my job. Now, I'm a pretty introverted person. I don't like playing the heavy, and frankly being around a lot of people and having to interact with them on a daily basis tends to wear me out and wear me down.

I need the weekends to relax and recharge my batteries. Time to be alone, time to rest, time to just kind of veg out a little. Streaming art helps, gives me a release and allows me to interact with people from a safe distance. Usually, my weekends start by going to a movie alone on Friday nights, just a dark place where i can lose myself for a couple hours. Couldn't do that this week. Folks had scheduled some of their friends to come over for dinner on Friday nights, and since I do almost all of the cooking for the family, they needed me there to make dinner and all that.

No big deal. I can survive a friday night. Even with the usually hectic weekend days involving housework and yard work and all the other crap I deal with every weekend, I've still got the two nights to relax. Right. So... This weekend's project involves painting the bathroom we're remodeling. Time consuming and annoying. Not enough time between coats to do anything relaxing. And then, saturday night my mother invites another set of friends over for ANOTHER dinner party, and I've gotta be social and Mr. Cook again. Wasted day prepping and priming the bathroom, and then the evening at another useless party with people I hardly know.

Spent all day today painting the walls of the bath, running out to get more paint, more tools, etc. All that junk, thinking that Sunday night will cure all, give me that few hours of release I need. Not gonna happen. Turns out the tile guys are coming on monday to grout the tiles... which means we've got to finish the CEILING as well. It's now 6:00, and we're probably not going to get the painting done for at least another 3 hours cause the walls are still too tacky to tape off the ceiling lines.

So... I haven't drawn ANYTHING all weekend, gotten little to no downtime to relax, and I've got no prospect of getting any of that before I hit monday morning running at full speed for another hectic stressful week of work. I'm just... hurting and exhausted. With no relief in sight for another week. And knowing my household and living situation, likely not to get much relief next weekend either.

Sorry... just needed to write out how I'm feeling right now.