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My life is hell right now...
11 years ago
I have usable vision right now so I am posting an update while I can.
Just went through all the submissions I had backed up and what not, I did not bother with the journals so I nuked them.
Been pretty quiet for what feels like a lifetime, I can hardly see most of the time unless I stay very still for long periods of time, so I have been playing Mass Effect 3 MP on my PS3 cause I was really good at the game on the Xbox 360 and kicked ass even though I was half blind end of last year when my left eye did the bleed thing then.
The doctors want me to come back in a few months for a checkup and if I need it I will have surgery in my left eye to remove the blood, unless it gets absorbed and flushed out by then.
Right eye I am currently in que for a surgery to get the oil that was put in there out, if my vision seems like it might be good I will get a lens put in.
I have a lot of pain going on right now, random leg pains, lower back pains and neck pains from trying to stay still so I can see...
Also been having stomach pains... probably from only eating once a day at 7pm... I have like $70 in my paypal and am trying to stretch it out for as long as I possibly can while I am a broken piece of crap, not much else I can do right now about it, I am losing weight though, I am down to 274.6lbs... but aside from the pain I am dizzy all the time and starving.
Got my application thing I need to fill out to get Social Security... when I asked my brother if he would help me with it he got irritated and say "what now?" so I told him never mind... I can't read the papers too well, but gonna try to get the filled out soon as I can so I can get hopfully get money to feed my self things that won't kill my kidneys (I am stage III right now)
Sorry for such a gloomy journal, but I needed to sound off cause I am suffering pretty badly and need to vent, not helping that I was treated to an idiot who made him self look like a victim while posting a lot of lies about some one I care about... then his girlfriend jumping in and making stupid comments on a journal of hers without knowing a damn thing about what was going on or what the person I care about is really like... both are unwatched, let them rot.
Need to thank Bioware for the Mass Effect games cause they are helping me out massively right now when I see well enough to play them and more importantly I need to thank
yoon for being there, for the phone calls, for listening to me, for worrying about me and buying me food that is being sent to me in the mail... she care so much for me right now and is so selfless even now... her great grand mother just died... yet she is at work doing what she needs to do and still looking out for me.
Go to yoon's page and give her some love, she deserves it, also give her a watch will you?
Thanks for reading, again sorry this journal is so dark... and long had to vent... take care of your selves *hugs*
Just went through all the submissions I had backed up and what not, I did not bother with the journals so I nuked them.
Been pretty quiet for what feels like a lifetime, I can hardly see most of the time unless I stay very still for long periods of time, so I have been playing Mass Effect 3 MP on my PS3 cause I was really good at the game on the Xbox 360 and kicked ass even though I was half blind end of last year when my left eye did the bleed thing then.
The doctors want me to come back in a few months for a checkup and if I need it I will have surgery in my left eye to remove the blood, unless it gets absorbed and flushed out by then.
Right eye I am currently in que for a surgery to get the oil that was put in there out, if my vision seems like it might be good I will get a lens put in.
I have a lot of pain going on right now, random leg pains, lower back pains and neck pains from trying to stay still so I can see...
Also been having stomach pains... probably from only eating once a day at 7pm... I have like $70 in my paypal and am trying to stretch it out for as long as I possibly can while I am a broken piece of crap, not much else I can do right now about it, I am losing weight though, I am down to 274.6lbs... but aside from the pain I am dizzy all the time and starving.
Got my application thing I need to fill out to get Social Security... when I asked my brother if he would help me with it he got irritated and say "what now?" so I told him never mind... I can't read the papers too well, but gonna try to get the filled out soon as I can so I can get hopfully get money to feed my self things that won't kill my kidneys (I am stage III right now)
Sorry for such a gloomy journal, but I needed to sound off cause I am suffering pretty badly and need to vent, not helping that I was treated to an idiot who made him self look like a victim while posting a lot of lies about some one I care about... then his girlfriend jumping in and making stupid comments on a journal of hers without knowing a damn thing about what was going on or what the person I care about is really like... both are unwatched, let them rot.
Need to thank Bioware for the Mass Effect games cause they are helping me out massively right now when I see well enough to play them and more importantly I need to thank
yoon for being there, for the phone calls, for listening to me, for worrying about me and buying me food that is being sent to me in the mail... she care so much for me right now and is so selfless even now... her great grand mother just died... yet she is at work doing what she needs to do and still looking out for me.Go to
yoon's page and give her some love, she deserves it, also give her a watch will you?Thanks for reading, again sorry this journal is so dark... and long had to vent... take care of your selves *hugs*
I know it's been rough but hang in there. It sounds like you're almost at the end of the long tunnel to the other side.
I'm glad Yoon is taking good care of you.
try to take care of yourself man. hang in there.
Watched yoon, hope it helps.